I love lilies of all sorts. So when I walked into her room, she had a card on the bed and some of the most beautiful flowers on my night stand with a hint of my fav color... hello purpley gorgeousness!
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Monday, September 03, 2007
Welcome to California
So bringing the new girl into town is an event unto itself. It just so happened that Friday morning, the 31st, had a HUGE change of events. Magically Alix didn't have to move afterall and now had the entire weekend open... so by 3:00pm that afternoon we had her booked on a flight to be in BFL by 1:00am. SWEET! She was now going to be here for Pride and a little family gathering on Sunday.
I found us a hotel room for the weekend and put plans into motion. She was now going to be able to meet my friends... and my family. So far, all the family I have shared with have been very supportive of me. I'm lucky to have such an awesome family. I knew they would welcome her in the same way. Pride went off wonderfully, we had a great time and somehow, she got hooked into taking care of filler music between bands. Computers and music being her thing, she was pretty much at ease... once we got all our shit figured out :) Thanks again baby, everyone really appreciated it. She also helped me in the beer booth. That was fun within itself. It could have been 10 deg cooler but overall it was a great Pride and I can't wait to get started for next years :)
Sunday eve brought us to a small family bbq. I say small and that falls somewhere between 10-15 people. No big deal... well unless your family consists of 5. Alix walked in, smiled and I started to make the rounds with names. My uncle welcomed her in with a big hug, it was great and made me smile so big inside. We had a great time and she fit right in. My best friend of 16 years loved her and was glad to see me so happy, giving me 2 big thumbs up :)
*sigh* as always it went to fast but each time we get closer and it becomes more *wow.*
I look forward to all the "wows" of the future and key cards that won't work after one use... *wink* Thanks again baby.
So bringing the new girl into town is an event unto itself. It just so happened that Friday morning, the 31st, had a HUGE change of events. Magically Alix didn't have to move afterall and now had the entire weekend open... so by 3:00pm that afternoon we had her booked on a flight to be in BFL by 1:00am. SWEET! She was now going to be here for Pride and a little family gathering on Sunday.
I found us a hotel room for the weekend and put plans into motion. She was now going to be able to meet my friends... and my family. So far, all the family I have shared with have been very supportive of me. I'm lucky to have such an awesome family. I knew they would welcome her in the same way. Pride went off wonderfully, we had a great time and somehow, she got hooked into taking care of filler music between bands. Computers and music being her thing, she was pretty much at ease... once we got all our shit figured out :) Thanks again baby, everyone really appreciated it. She also helped me in the beer booth. That was fun within itself. It could have been 10 deg cooler but overall it was a great Pride and I can't wait to get started for next years :)
Sunday eve brought us to a small family bbq. I say small and that falls somewhere between 10-15 people. No big deal... well unless your family consists of 5. Alix walked in, smiled and I started to make the rounds with names. My uncle welcomed her in with a big hug, it was great and made me smile so big inside. We had a great time and she fit right in. My best friend of 16 years loved her and was glad to see me so happy, giving me 2 big thumbs up :)
*sigh* as always it went to fast but each time we get closer and it becomes more *wow.*
I look forward to all the "wows" of the future and key cards that won't work after one use... *wink* Thanks again baby.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
The night air forced her to grab her coat and pull it a little tighter around her neck. Her breath laid a path before her to follow. The air was brisk and she could smell the rain coming in quickly. The storm was coming much faster than her computer led her to believe before she left for work. The delay at the train station didn't help much either. Tonight her walk seemed to be taking twice as long and she couldn't move her feet fast enough. There weren't many people out tonight but there were a set of steps that seemed to be keeping in good time with hers. Freakishly close, she tried to move a bit quicker and even cross the street to change it up a bit. This caused unsaid person to follow in suit. A bit of alarm came across her as if someone put a warm blanket around her. As she turned to see who was in persuit, she was greeted by a "umph" from a person. As she caught herself and looked up she saw a familar face.
"Hey what's your hurry?"
"I'm sorry but someone..." her voice trailed off as she turned around and no one was there.
"Someone... what?"
She knew that someone was right behind her, she could almost feel their breath they seemed so close. How could someone disappear like that? The eerie nights of October were making themselves quite apparent.
Fall, I welcome you and your eternal bond with unexplainable things and chills within the night. *mmm*
"Hey what's your hurry?"
"I'm sorry but someone..." her voice trailed off as she turned around and no one was there.
"Someone... what?"
She knew that someone was right behind her, she could almost feel their breath they seemed so close. How could someone disappear like that? The eerie nights of October were making themselves quite apparent.
Fall, I welcome you and your eternal bond with unexplainable things and chills within the night. *mmm*
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Monday, August 20, 2007
Bite Me
I'm just pissed off. I'm tired of my shoulder dropping me to the point of tears and nausea because the pain can be so intense with one minor move. It's been 2 fucking weeks and I can't hardly do anything. The biggest suck of them all, I can't do anything I really love, well except paint/color but athletically I'm out for the count...
I'm going to the batting cages tonight. I just don't give a fuck. It's going to hurt regardless... let's see what I can really do to agitate it. I'll deal with the aftermath tomorrow.
*deep breaths* So now almost 3 hours later and some gentleness like I've never experienced before, I'm not going tonight. I could delete the above and make this just all sappy and crap but I figure in order to learn, I need to leave it up there to remind me to not be so selfish and my actions effect others. A problem I've had and am learning how to handle with some very special help.
Everything will be ok if that's how you want it to be - just believe.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Leaps and Bounds
Flying has never been my thing. Tonight it really hit me. Plans have been made, steps are being taken and futures are falling into place. I did one of the biggest leaps of my life. I'm bound to find what I've lacked and been denied for so long. After some conversations and wonderful advice from many people, I know this path is the one that makes me happiest. Tonight a girl showed me something. Tonight I understood. In a few more moons... a new life starts. Welcome life...
*smiles*
"I fall so hard inside the idea of you, That’s why with you can say what I mean"
Flying has never been my thing. Tonight it really hit me. Plans have been made, steps are being taken and futures are falling into place. I did one of the biggest leaps of my life. I'm bound to find what I've lacked and been denied for so long. After some conversations and wonderful advice from many people, I know this path is the one that makes me happiest. Tonight a girl showed me something. Tonight I understood. In a few more moons... a new life starts. Welcome life...
*smiles*
"I fall so hard inside the idea of you, That’s why with you can say what I mean"
Saturday, August 18, 2007
I really enjoyed watching people this trip. Watching them interact as couples, families and friends. I'm a voyeur by nature, anyone who knows me, knows this. It gives me ammo for all my artistic ventures, you never know when you need to pull something from the memory banks.
You've seen this pier 100's of times, you've seen the people playing volleyball, tanning, walking, enjoying their families... falling in love but have you really ever felt it... I mean looked around and think, "shit, I have it good and look at all the people I have to share this moment with?"
My advice is take that walk, grab that hand and kiss that person like you're back in junior high and it's the first kiss of your entire life...
I've had trips to the beach by myself before but this trip had a whole new outlook for me. It was based purely on searching for pictures to shoot for painting/artistic purposes. I wandered around, met some new people and just generally had a good time wandering free. Wandering seems to be what I do best. I enjoy it. Make sure you wander once in awhile, it does wonders for the mind and soul.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Grinding noises, teaching one self how to adjust and an update:
So it's been offically a week now since I went to the doctor. Saturday still had me VERY limited on what I can do. Putting on a back pack was quite an event. It involved me sitting on the bed, while balancing the back pack upright. sliding it through the injured shoulder first, then manuevering my left one to proceed in figuring out a way in. Don't ask about getting dressed, basically a lot of wincing and weird bending. Picking up a fork off the counter hurt like hell. It was like someone took a ice pick, wedged in between where my shoulder and arm connect and wiggle it back and forth so sharp pains proceed to shoot out in all directions like lightening bolts and basically make my hand useless. With that said, I was still taking my pain meds and being a damn slug which drives me nuts but THANK GOODNESS for my friends taking me out and keeping my mind off of it. Monday came around and a big difference occurred. I could now use my hand. *nods* Okay, diggin' this. I could even lift it almost shoulder height, pretty sweet. The exercises were FINALLY working. I swear making your fingers walk up a door seems stupid but I SOO get it now.
Enter Tuesday. Now some days last week I would forget and reach for something and major expicitives would exit my mouth usually by something falling on the ground. Yesterday was different. I forgot, however, when I picked up a "bomb" to load in the machine, not till I was half way through did I realize what happened. Enter *huge ass smiles* I decided to test it out. I lifted it straight out very slowly to shoulder height. No pain. Lifted it stratight up. No pain. Made a full circle motion... HOLY SHIT NO PAIN! So I'm on day 8 here people. I have to be realistic, I'm still suppose to be super careful for 6 more days. Otherwise, a certain person will smack me in the back of the head and I don't need a headache on top of everything else. Yes, I'm being very careful *smiles & winks* promise.
Having full function again is giving me a whole new appreciation for my health. It's onward and upward from here. The grinding noise isn't so great and is new and I was warned of this. The option to fix this is to have some of my bone shaved off. Who in the what... oh yeah, you read that right. We'll see how bad it actually is, swelling can still be a contributing factor. Wish me well on my quest to be a slug for the upcoming week. The only thing I'm lifting is my camera at the beach and my art stix to color some pics :)
So it's been offically a week now since I went to the doctor. Saturday still had me VERY limited on what I can do. Putting on a back pack was quite an event. It involved me sitting on the bed, while balancing the back pack upright. sliding it through the injured shoulder first, then manuevering my left one to proceed in figuring out a way in. Don't ask about getting dressed, basically a lot of wincing and weird bending. Picking up a fork off the counter hurt like hell. It was like someone took a ice pick, wedged in between where my shoulder and arm connect and wiggle it back and forth so sharp pains proceed to shoot out in all directions like lightening bolts and basically make my hand useless. With that said, I was still taking my pain meds and being a damn slug which drives me nuts but THANK GOODNESS for my friends taking me out and keeping my mind off of it. Monday came around and a big difference occurred. I could now use my hand. *nods* Okay, diggin' this. I could even lift it almost shoulder height, pretty sweet. The exercises were FINALLY working. I swear making your fingers walk up a door seems stupid but I SOO get it now.
Enter Tuesday. Now some days last week I would forget and reach for something and major expicitives would exit my mouth usually by something falling on the ground. Yesterday was different. I forgot, however, when I picked up a "bomb" to load in the machine, not till I was half way through did I realize what happened. Enter *huge ass smiles* I decided to test it out. I lifted it straight out very slowly to shoulder height. No pain. Lifted it stratight up. No pain. Made a full circle motion... HOLY SHIT NO PAIN! So I'm on day 8 here people. I have to be realistic, I'm still suppose to be super careful for 6 more days. Otherwise, a certain person will smack me in the back of the head and I don't need a headache on top of everything else. Yes, I'm being very careful *smiles & winks* promise.
Having full function again is giving me a whole new appreciation for my health. It's onward and upward from here. The grinding noise isn't so great and is new and I was warned of this. The option to fix this is to have some of my bone shaved off. Who in the what... oh yeah, you read that right. We'll see how bad it actually is, swelling can still be a contributing factor. Wish me well on my quest to be a slug for the upcoming week. The only thing I'm lifting is my camera at the beach and my art stix to color some pics :)
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Hi Pictures *waves*
With a teeny bit of persuasion, I now have two of my pics displaying at the 18th Street Gallery & Studio. It's all very strange. They will be on display in the studio part sometime next week. Makes me want to do more. Now I have to figure out what I'd like to do more of exactly?
"Walking on my path, it really feels like I'm floating along now."
With a teeny bit of persuasion, I now have two of my pics displaying at the 18th Street Gallery & Studio. It's all very strange. They will be on display in the studio part sometime next week. Makes me want to do more. Now I have to figure out what I'd like to do more of exactly?
"Walking on my path, it really feels like I'm floating along now."
What If's...
I'm finally living without what if's. My fearlessness is almost scary within itself. Interesting to say the least. I've taken 3 very big What If's and walked right into them with a very sound mind. No regrets. This is my path, the one I've searched for within myself for awhile.
Love
Dreams
Life
No particular order really. I live by my own Law of 3. I believe if you have 3 very good reasons to do something, you should do it. I also, up until recently (but I'm now rethinking), believed the reverse, 3 very bad reasons should tell you not to do it. Which brings me to my next point, if you go looking for the 3 bad reasons aren't you setting yourself up for one big What If? The pessimist. Looking for the negative, never "going for it." How many times are you going to dwell on that negative and finally look at that glass and think, "that is 1/2 of a great fucking beer, sitting there, going to waste, for what?"
"You seek up an emotion
And our cup is overflowing
You seek up an emotion,
Sometimes your well is dry" DMB
I've made my cup overflow and the emotion makes it nearly impossible for me not to smile most of the time. I'm looking forward to my newest adventure with love, dreams and life. I'm taking a huge chance in a situation I never thought possible. One impulsive moment by someone proved to me what I had been missing.
"Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of who you were really meant to love."
I'm finally living without what if's. My fearlessness is almost scary within itself. Interesting to say the least. I've taken 3 very big What If's and walked right into them with a very sound mind. No regrets. This is my path, the one I've searched for within myself for awhile.
Love
Dreams
Life
No particular order really. I live by my own Law of 3. I believe if you have 3 very good reasons to do something, you should do it. I also, up until recently (but I'm now rethinking), believed the reverse, 3 very bad reasons should tell you not to do it. Which brings me to my next point, if you go looking for the 3 bad reasons aren't you setting yourself up for one big What If? The pessimist. Looking for the negative, never "going for it." How many times are you going to dwell on that negative and finally look at that glass and think, "that is 1/2 of a great fucking beer, sitting there, going to waste, for what?"
"You seek up an emotion
And our cup is overflowing
You seek up an emotion,
Sometimes your well is dry" DMB
I've made my cup overflow and the emotion makes it nearly impossible for me not to smile most of the time. I'm looking forward to my newest adventure with love, dreams and life. I'm taking a huge chance in a situation I never thought possible. One impulsive moment by someone proved to me what I had been missing.
"Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of who you were really meant to love."
Friday, August 10, 2007
Halloween is alright, I guess... *laughs uncontrollably*
Anyone who knows me, knows I am seriously into Halloween. I am all about "doin' it up." I'm not sure whose house I will decorate this year, I have 2 options. In all seriousness though, I could (if I had the time) decorate both :) Oh yeah, I have that much stuff. I have also met my match. My new friend JW apparently loves All Hallows Eve just as much and has even rented a storage unit just for all her stuff. Okay! Jealous a little? HELLS YEAH! We're going to collaborate I think... should be *looks around* hellish...
So I thought I should decorate my blog a little. August, you ask? For reals people. I like my little banner up top and yes, you see it correctly, that is a counter to Halloween. Hope its right, guess I'll know tomorrow when it says 1 of 3 things, either 82 which will put a sad face on me, 81 which will get a "Yippee I did it right!" or 83 which now I have just discovered how to make a timer go backwards and need to copyright that shit which will put the puzzled look on my face. Kind of like when you give a 3 yr. old a square block to put in a round hole, just like that face.
So get ready peeps :) If you have not witnessed my methods of madness. Go back to my October 2006 blog, well maybe November 2006, not sure when I posted those pics. Yeah, you know what? Try November, I'm going with November.
Anyone who knows me, knows I am seriously into Halloween. I am all about "doin' it up." I'm not sure whose house I will decorate this year, I have 2 options. In all seriousness though, I could (if I had the time) decorate both :) Oh yeah, I have that much stuff. I have also met my match. My new friend JW apparently loves All Hallows Eve just as much and has even rented a storage unit just for all her stuff. Okay! Jealous a little? HELLS YEAH! We're going to collaborate I think... should be *looks around* hellish...
So I thought I should decorate my blog a little. August, you ask? For reals people. I like my little banner up top and yes, you see it correctly, that is a counter to Halloween. Hope its right, guess I'll know tomorrow when it says 1 of 3 things, either 82 which will put a sad face on me, 81 which will get a "Yippee I did it right!" or 83 which now I have just discovered how to make a timer go backwards and need to copyright that shit which will put the puzzled look on my face. Kind of like when you give a 3 yr. old a square block to put in a round hole, just like that face.
So get ready peeps :) If you have not witnessed my methods of madness. Go back to my October 2006 blog, well maybe November 2006, not sure when I posted those pics. Yeah, you know what? Try November, I'm going with November.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
2 weeks in Hell
So yeah. I've been in a transition phase, well for these purposes that's what we'll call it. I've been moving a lot of stuff, reorganizing a lot of stuff and just doing A LOT of stuff. I have also had this pain in my shoulder building. Now when it started to affect my job, I learned to use my left hand more but when I went to pick up a small cylinder and there was the worst pinching/burning sensation I had ever felt and had to throw it across the room versus dropping it on my foot, I knew it was bad. I fought it for a week but never rested it. In stead, I thought cleaning out my friends garage by myself one morning was the best way to make it feel better or not so much.
Monday I came to work and my mobility was definitely in question. I made a doctors appointment for later that evening. I had obviously let it go too long as it was. I dreaded every moment until that doc appointment. I hate the doctor, they make my blood pressure rise, my heart race and I go pale. A good trick for any Mexican really. So the tiny Chinese Lady Doctor kicked my ass. She made my shoulder/arm do motions that someone should not have to do in my state. I went in there with a pain level of 4 and walked out about a 9. There was no way I could sit and it not hurt in some way. It was throbbing and I was miserable. She prescribed me some ibuprofen and a muscle relaxer for night time. She also told me, no sports for 2 weeks, no moving things and she tried to get me to take some time off work... yeah right. She was very specific on how my life can unfold in the next 2 weeks, none of the options I like but will deal with when the time comes. For now, I have pills and these nasty exercises she gave me.
So yeah. I've been in a transition phase, well for these purposes that's what we'll call it. I've been moving a lot of stuff, reorganizing a lot of stuff and just doing A LOT of stuff. I have also had this pain in my shoulder building. Now when it started to affect my job, I learned to use my left hand more but when I went to pick up a small cylinder and there was the worst pinching/burning sensation I had ever felt and had to throw it across the room versus dropping it on my foot, I knew it was bad. I fought it for a week but never rested it. In stead, I thought cleaning out my friends garage by myself one morning was the best way to make it feel better or not so much.
Monday I came to work and my mobility was definitely in question. I made a doctors appointment for later that evening. I had obviously let it go too long as it was. I dreaded every moment until that doc appointment. I hate the doctor, they make my blood pressure rise, my heart race and I go pale. A good trick for any Mexican really. So the tiny Chinese Lady Doctor kicked my ass. She made my shoulder/arm do motions that someone should not have to do in my state. I went in there with a pain level of 4 and walked out about a 9. There was no way I could sit and it not hurt in some way. It was throbbing and I was miserable. She prescribed me some ibuprofen and a muscle relaxer for night time. She also told me, no sports for 2 weeks, no moving things and she tried to get me to take some time off work... yeah right. She was very specific on how my life can unfold in the next 2 weeks, none of the options I like but will deal with when the time comes. For now, I have pills and these nasty exercises she gave me.
Monday, August 06, 2007
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Coming around...
My new work area. I've had to slim down and I like it. I've got quite the work force backing me. As you can see, I'm near ready to go. It's really exciting to sit down and feel so much flowing through me. I can't remember feeling like this for some time now.
My new work area. I've had to slim down and I like it. I've got quite the work force backing me. As you can see, I'm near ready to go. It's really exciting to sit down and feel so much flowing through me. I can't remember feeling like this for some time now.
My first victim. One of my favorite prints from the Arboretum. Sadness! The color pencils didn't work out so great but the color stix are awesome! Yay for color stix!
The red was fun, these make shading really easy. Hard to see in this pic, I'll have to get a little work lamp for my desk to show the colors better but for now, I know it looks cool.
The orange is kinda hard to see but it's there.
You can see the orange a little better but the light yellow is pretty tough to see. Looks much better live.
So with that little bit of color it really makes the flowers jump off the print. I was near tears at one point because I hadn't felt such pure happiness in a long time. All of it felt so natural and simple and nothing was clouding my mind. I didn't feel so stressed out. As the days go on and I get more settled in and organized, it's getting easier to just plop down and think of things to create. I even carry a sketch book with me now in the car, things are fleeting from my soul. I haven't felt like this since Molly. I'm not sure why her death was so hard for me but some part of me disappeared when she stopped walking on this Earth.
Yes I know you can do this in photoshop or whatever digital thingie you like to use. Seeing as how I still use film, this form of art suits me just perfectly. This is a lost art, most people haven't even heard of doing such a thing. I'm starting at this point and will move on to painting with oils on the pics. I'm really looking forward to that, the colors on those will be quite vibrant but for now I'm enjoying the subtlties of what the color stix can do.
Friday, August 03, 2007
Misconceptions
So I've been thinking a lot lately about decisions I've made. Tough as they may have been I think I deserve to be happy. Now most people who say they care about you usually make some attempt to say, "well all I want is for you to be happy." As most of us very much know, that is a load of crap. It is what it is. I'm not happy therefore I hope the bowels of hell draw you in and make you watch me in my infinite happiness that ultimately I WILL have.
Enter the term Karma. I know it all too well. Now here is where my title comes in. Karma is not your act of vengeance but the total effect of a person's actions and conduct during phases of the person's existence which ultimately are regarded as determining a person's destiny.
Layman's terms: if you do something with pure evil intent behind it, you will in turn define your own destiny to turn out the same.
So if someone is unhappy, I mean genuinely not happy and hurting inside from lying to themselves for so long and living someone else's dream, how does that become fair that vengeance be cast upon them but have karma (which they actually live by daily) be used against them?
I know some of you believe Karma will be returned to me in some way, shape or form. I say to you, call it what it is and that be vengeance. I'm sorry you chose to live with such heavy thoughts and if you really want such a thing, be careful what you wish for, I could be gone in an instant... and then you got what you wanted or did you?
So I've been thinking a lot lately about decisions I've made. Tough as they may have been I think I deserve to be happy. Now most people who say they care about you usually make some attempt to say, "well all I want is for you to be happy." As most of us very much know, that is a load of crap. It is what it is. I'm not happy therefore I hope the bowels of hell draw you in and make you watch me in my infinite happiness that ultimately I WILL have.
Enter the term Karma. I know it all too well. Now here is where my title comes in. Karma is not your act of vengeance but the total effect of a person's actions and conduct during phases of the person's existence which ultimately are regarded as determining a person's destiny.
Layman's terms: if you do something with pure evil intent behind it, you will in turn define your own destiny to turn out the same.
So if someone is unhappy, I mean genuinely not happy and hurting inside from lying to themselves for so long and living someone else's dream, how does that become fair that vengeance be cast upon them but have karma (which they actually live by daily) be used against them?
I know some of you believe Karma will be returned to me in some way, shape or form. I say to you, call it what it is and that be vengeance. I'm sorry you chose to live with such heavy thoughts and if you really want such a thing, be careful what you wish for, I could be gone in an instant... and then you got what you wanted or did you?
Universe is on your side...
I got one of the most alarming txts ever yesterday. Without spilling too much of someone elses life on my blog, a threat was made, court executed and then revoked because other said party was a fucking idiot.
The amount of hate and discrimination in this world sometimes disgusts me so much to the point it makes my soul ache. How can someone that is caring and continually trying to do the right thing, be put in such shitty situation after shitty situation?
I can only believe maybe the universe is testing his will and showing him if you can get through this, you truly can get through everything. So far I've been right. I only want him and his daughter to find happiness in life. So congrats to you both, I'm glad you still got to enjoy your nightly walk.
Your bond is as strong as you will it to be, no one can take that away from you. Regardless if you're in the same house or miles away. Never forget that.
I got one of the most alarming txts ever yesterday. Without spilling too much of someone elses life on my blog, a threat was made, court executed and then revoked because other said party was a fucking idiot.
The amount of hate and discrimination in this world sometimes disgusts me so much to the point it makes my soul ache. How can someone that is caring and continually trying to do the right thing, be put in such shitty situation after shitty situation?
I can only believe maybe the universe is testing his will and showing him if you can get through this, you truly can get through everything. So far I've been right. I only want him and his daughter to find happiness in life. So congrats to you both, I'm glad you still got to enjoy your nightly walk.
Your bond is as strong as you will it to be, no one can take that away from you. Regardless if you're in the same house or miles away. Never forget that.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Friday, July 27, 2007
Thursday, July 26, 2007
And so it begins...
In moving forward sometimes you don't think about what's left behind.
Future = Forward
In order to begin again, constantly revisiting old wounds and trying to retear them open just prolongs the inevitable and quite possibly pushes away any normalcy that could be with others in the future.
Two paths once on the same road. One thought this shortcut was the way to go and the other wanted the scenic route. Hoping they would eventually meet up, one made it to where the roads met and the other did not.
Question is this: does she wait or does she go on...
In moving forward sometimes you don't think about what's left behind.
Future = Forward
In order to begin again, constantly revisiting old wounds and trying to retear them open just prolongs the inevitable and quite possibly pushes away any normalcy that could be with others in the future.
Two paths once on the same road. One thought this shortcut was the way to go and the other wanted the scenic route. Hoping they would eventually meet up, one made it to where the roads met and the other did not.
Question is this: does she wait or does she go on...
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
Moving Along
You always here those cliches. You know the ones? They want to make you scratch you're eyeballs with Freddie Krugers claws and then launch them at the people spouting off those words of wisdom. No I'm not bitter at all. Really I'm not. I am in a bit of a mood though.
"Well it's all for the best." IF it was really for the best, why does it hurt so much? Fuck you #1.
"Time heals all wounds." No shit asshole. Fuck you #2
"There's no place like home." Well what happens when one of the parties in said home decide to leave? Then the home is just a house... Fuck you #3
"The light at the end of the tunnel." I like the dark anyway. Fuck you #4
"Love is blind" That goes for falling out of too... sometimes it's gone and you never even saw it coming or going as the case may be... FUCK YOU #5
You always here those cliches. You know the ones? They want to make you scratch you're eyeballs with Freddie Krugers claws and then launch them at the people spouting off those words of wisdom. No I'm not bitter at all. Really I'm not. I am in a bit of a mood though.
"Well it's all for the best." IF it was really for the best, why does it hurt so much? Fuck you #1.
"Time heals all wounds." No shit asshole. Fuck you #2
"There's no place like home." Well what happens when one of the parties in said home decide to leave? Then the home is just a house... Fuck you #3
"The light at the end of the tunnel." I like the dark anyway. Fuck you #4
"Love is blind" That goes for falling out of too... sometimes it's gone and you never even saw it coming or going as the case may be... FUCK YOU #5
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
Tree/Flower Zoo
So this past weekend I was at the L.A. Arboretum in Arcadia, CA. Basically, its a zoo of plants, flowers and such. Very beautiful and a place to be visited often. Anyway, believe it or not, I resigned as the Executive Board Secretary for the Turtle & Tortoise Society. Oh yeah, you read that right. I'm thinning and reshaping my life and I'm taking it very seriously. I have so much I want to do and keeping myself so busy isn't making me happy. I thought that's what grown ups do but guess what? I don't function well with the business aspect of it all. And I'm learning, that's okay.
Anyway, I really have my camera outfitted pretty well (well both cameras) and I decided after my LAST official meeting, I was going to take some black & whites (yes actual film, I don't do digital) so I can work on the next part of what I want to learn. Painting on pictures. In order to do that you need some good black & whites to blow up. I think I got some. Here are a few of the pics I did. I'm pretty rusty but I didn't do too badly.
So this past weekend I was at the L.A. Arboretum in Arcadia, CA. Basically, its a zoo of plants, flowers and such. Very beautiful and a place to be visited often. Anyway, believe it or not, I resigned as the Executive Board Secretary for the Turtle & Tortoise Society. Oh yeah, you read that right. I'm thinning and reshaping my life and I'm taking it very seriously. I have so much I want to do and keeping myself so busy isn't making me happy. I thought that's what grown ups do but guess what? I don't function well with the business aspect of it all. And I'm learning, that's okay.
Anyway, I really have my camera outfitted pretty well (well both cameras) and I decided after my LAST official meeting, I was going to take some black & whites (yes actual film, I don't do digital) so I can work on the next part of what I want to learn. Painting on pictures. In order to do that you need some good black & whites to blow up. I think I got some. Here are a few of the pics I did. I'm pretty rusty but I didn't do too badly.
Hello fun stuff
Okay, my first attempt at actual double exposure. SWEET! It worked. Not the best but not bad for my first one. The web looking background is a spiny bush with mini lilac flowers in it. I like it!
Some Asian women kept chasing this poor guy up a walk way, no matter where he ran to, they tried to get right next to him. He finally got fed up and went up a tree to get away from them. I was getting ready to head out for the day and thought this was a pretty shot.
My favorite flower... the Tiger Lily. I took out a Macro +10 filter cap, screwed it on and this is what I got. Pretty cool. Needs some work but it's pretty tricky to work with.
Basking in the sun, this peakcock was talking an awful lot. He kept giving me the "eye." I caught him with his beak open while he was yelling.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Monday, July 09, 2007
Card Pulled: Shouldawouldacoulda
After explaining my dilemma to a friend about the book incident of 2007. He pulled 2 cards on me. The "what if" and "time lost/wasted" cards. Ouch. Talk about hitting the nail on the head. So after feeling pretty ridiculous about not buying the book, I decided since I had to pick up some photos and it was going to be on my way home, I should just buy the damn thing.
So I walk in and take in the smell of the books and head toward the back to the art section. I scan the area and can't find the book. Well of course I can't. I read that section over twice and it just wasn't there. I went to the not-so-help center and of course they could answer this. It was sold yesterday. Apparently, it was a hotter commodity then I thought.
Lesson: I "shoulda" bought it. Then I "woulda" had it and I "coulda" been on my way to drawing. DAMN IT!
After explaining my dilemma to a friend about the book incident of 2007. He pulled 2 cards on me. The "what if" and "time lost/wasted" cards. Ouch. Talk about hitting the nail on the head. So after feeling pretty ridiculous about not buying the book, I decided since I had to pick up some photos and it was going to be on my way home, I should just buy the damn thing.
So I walk in and take in the smell of the books and head toward the back to the art section. I scan the area and can't find the book. Well of course I can't. I read that section over twice and it just wasn't there. I went to the not-so-help center and of course they could answer this. It was sold yesterday. Apparently, it was a hotter commodity then I thought.
Lesson: I "shoulda" bought it. Then I "woulda" had it and I "coulda" been on my way to drawing. DAMN IT!
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Playing the Part of a Chicken
So I spent a portion of my day at Barnes & Noble working on notes and such. It is far less destracting than my own home even with all of the books surrounding me. I found a cozy seat by the cafe which lofted out some very yummy smells but I resisted and kept right on working along. Unfortunately, about 20 minutes before I needed to leave to meet for dinner, my lappy battery died. Well F*%@. I didn't want to arrive at BJ's too early because they are one of the only places that carries cider on tap and I was only going to have one since they are a tad on the strong side. So I decided to see if B&N had any art books I couldn't live without. I couldn't find one in particular I was looking for and the guy looked at me like I was a ghost when I explained to him what I was looking for. People skills, come on dude, grab some, I know you have books on that shit.
Anyway, I did run across one on the How to character faerys and other mythical creatures. OMGosh! I've been wanting to do this but I don't necessarily know the "rules" or if there are any to what they can and can't have. So I found this book to be very handy. So I was all gung-ho for about 3 minutes. I headed toward the front to pay for it and it happened. I looked down at it and started thinking... what if I can't do it? What if they don't come out right or I can't get the structures of their details right on. I can't certainly display anything that looks like shit...
I set the book down and walked out. Fear of Failure. So far my mind is winning over my desire.
So I had an extra cider to make me a little more giddy and forget about my internal struggle that happened 60 minutes prior.
Fear - 1
Me - - I can't even justify a zero, my 3 minute attempt was just sad.
*sigh*
So I spent a portion of my day at Barnes & Noble working on notes and such. It is far less destracting than my own home even with all of the books surrounding me. I found a cozy seat by the cafe which lofted out some very yummy smells but I resisted and kept right on working along. Unfortunately, about 20 minutes before I needed to leave to meet for dinner, my lappy battery died. Well F*%@. I didn't want to arrive at BJ's too early because they are one of the only places that carries cider on tap and I was only going to have one since they are a tad on the strong side. So I decided to see if B&N had any art books I couldn't live without. I couldn't find one in particular I was looking for and the guy looked at me like I was a ghost when I explained to him what I was looking for. People skills, come on dude, grab some, I know you have books on that shit.
Anyway, I did run across one on the How to character faerys and other mythical creatures. OMGosh! I've been wanting to do this but I don't necessarily know the "rules" or if there are any to what they can and can't have. So I found this book to be very handy. So I was all gung-ho for about 3 minutes. I headed toward the front to pay for it and it happened. I looked down at it and started thinking... what if I can't do it? What if they don't come out right or I can't get the structures of their details right on. I can't certainly display anything that looks like shit...
I set the book down and walked out. Fear of Failure. So far my mind is winning over my desire.
So I had an extra cider to make me a little more giddy and forget about my internal struggle that happened 60 minutes prior.
Fear - 1
Me - - I can't even justify a zero, my 3 minute attempt was just sad.
*sigh*
Friday, July 06, 2007
Ghost Hunters
Okay so I called my friend to see if she wanted to meet me down at the batting cages. Her response was simply this, "Oh I want to but we're going ghost hunting downtown. Wanna come?" Now to some of you this may sound a bit odd but I thought it sounded like a lot of fun. Now see they weren't meeting till 10:00pm at the #1 haunted building in Bakersfield: The Haberfield Building. So I told her I'd call her if we could make it. I bounced the idea around in my head because there was that voice. You know the one. "You need to get to bed early, you have a lot of work to do tomorrow." As I was about to give in, I snapped up my head and became really angry. I have no children. I can drink a little caffine and sleep in on the weekend. If I want to go ghost hunting, I should just go ghost hunting. I walked in that batting cage and killed that ball. I am tired of always doing "the right" thing. I want to have fun and sleep should not be why I don't do something. I can always catch up on sleep.
So after 30 minutes of killing the ball and myself, we hurried home to change and head downtown. We got there and settled in. Jenn gave us some background on the store and things that have occured over time. Apparently, this ghostie or ghosties do not like the beanie babies in the store. It or they also like to rearrange things around the store as well. She took us around and showed us different parts and rooms around the store.
So we got our instructions and just sat around, attempting to be quiet but put 8 of us together, 2 being big chickens and it makes it kinda hard to be quiet. Lots of giggling and such. We decided to roam around a bit with the night vision cam (very fucking cool btw). Denise handed it to me and I started to walk toward some of the back rooms and it shut off. Weird cause I my hand felt like it got bumped and then the camera turned off. Okay whatever. Then she had trouble getting it back on and decided to talk to the ghost: "Okay little ghostie, since you're so technologically advanced, why don't you turn the fucking thing back on." I don't know that I've laughed that hard in a long time. Leave it to Denise.
So we were all gathered toward the middle of the shop discussing some stuff and all of the sudden the credit machine starts printing out a receipt, over and over and over. We ran over there to see who did it but we realized we were all together. It wasn't on a whole hour it was 10:57, so it's not like it would be set to print end of the day receipts and it only printed one thing but 3 times. Okaayyy.
To which we walked into the other room to grab the paper and noticed a piggy beanie on the ground. Okay who threw the pig on the ground. Again, we were all together, no one went off alone. At the beginning we took pics of all the areas where things have moved or had something seen. Aaron pulled up some pics he took and one of them showed the pig on the stand with the other beanies. Weird. So Denise decided to sit in that corner because she thought the ghostie was hanging out there. She decided to just ask the ghost if it was there and she noticed a starfish beanie moving. So she asked again and it moved again. Then she began asking yes or no questions and each time this little starfish beanie would wiggle. Clearly move and not just in front of her. Creeeepppyy.
So we heard some chairs (or what sounded like chairs) being dragged across the floor above our heads. So 3 of them ran upstairs to see if they could find anything. Just some abandoned rooms, no chairs, no nothing. Alrighty.
Ghosties? Maybe, but we plan on staying the night some time in the near future to see what happens in the witching hours, it should be fun.
What do you believe in....
Okay so I called my friend to see if she wanted to meet me down at the batting cages. Her response was simply this, "Oh I want to but we're going ghost hunting downtown. Wanna come?" Now to some of you this may sound a bit odd but I thought it sounded like a lot of fun. Now see they weren't meeting till 10:00pm at the #1 haunted building in Bakersfield: The Haberfield Building. So I told her I'd call her if we could make it. I bounced the idea around in my head because there was that voice. You know the one. "You need to get to bed early, you have a lot of work to do tomorrow." As I was about to give in, I snapped up my head and became really angry. I have no children. I can drink a little caffine and sleep in on the weekend. If I want to go ghost hunting, I should just go ghost hunting. I walked in that batting cage and killed that ball. I am tired of always doing "the right" thing. I want to have fun and sleep should not be why I don't do something. I can always catch up on sleep.
So after 30 minutes of killing the ball and myself, we hurried home to change and head downtown. We got there and settled in. Jenn gave us some background on the store and things that have occured over time. Apparently, this ghostie or ghosties do not like the beanie babies in the store. It or they also like to rearrange things around the store as well. She took us around and showed us different parts and rooms around the store.
So we got our instructions and just sat around, attempting to be quiet but put 8 of us together, 2 being big chickens and it makes it kinda hard to be quiet. Lots of giggling and such. We decided to roam around a bit with the night vision cam (very fucking cool btw). Denise handed it to me and I started to walk toward some of the back rooms and it shut off. Weird cause I my hand felt like it got bumped and then the camera turned off. Okay whatever. Then she had trouble getting it back on and decided to talk to the ghost: "Okay little ghostie, since you're so technologically advanced, why don't you turn the fucking thing back on." I don't know that I've laughed that hard in a long time. Leave it to Denise.
So we were all gathered toward the middle of the shop discussing some stuff and all of the sudden the credit machine starts printing out a receipt, over and over and over. We ran over there to see who did it but we realized we were all together. It wasn't on a whole hour it was 10:57, so it's not like it would be set to print end of the day receipts and it only printed one thing but 3 times. Okaayyy.
To which we walked into the other room to grab the paper and noticed a piggy beanie on the ground. Okay who threw the pig on the ground. Again, we were all together, no one went off alone. At the beginning we took pics of all the areas where things have moved or had something seen. Aaron pulled up some pics he took and one of them showed the pig on the stand with the other beanies. Weird. So Denise decided to sit in that corner because she thought the ghostie was hanging out there. She decided to just ask the ghost if it was there and she noticed a starfish beanie moving. So she asked again and it moved again. Then she began asking yes or no questions and each time this little starfish beanie would wiggle. Clearly move and not just in front of her. Creeeepppyy.
So we heard some chairs (or what sounded like chairs) being dragged across the floor above our heads. So 3 of them ran upstairs to see if they could find anything. Just some abandoned rooms, no chairs, no nothing. Alrighty.
Ghosties? Maybe, but we plan on staying the night some time in the near future to see what happens in the witching hours, it should be fun.
What do you believe in....
Gallery Find
So in my latest adventures in life I have been lucky enough to have met 2 very awesome girls. They own their own Art Galley on 18th Street. Although they may not have it for much longer, I'm glad to have got to see it and will enjoy it for the next few months.
They had a Queen Mab Exhibit/Opening last weekend. I worked a good portion of the day but left to make the end of the show. This particular table had a fun little creature on it. Among a lot of other things. I was drawn to him right away. We wandered around and took it all in. So many things I want to try and explore, I can hardly wait. We have some talented people in this town and it was so cool to see all their ideas come to life.
We chatted with a few different people, continued looking around and enjoying all the creative energy around us. All the while keeping my eye on that little guy. Finally, I walked over to his card and he wasn't badly priced at all. I walked out to my car and grabbed some money to buy him. I named him Widget and he has found a nice place on my shelf near my faery pics and my cheshire cat. He is chatty and gets along great in my "space."
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Where to start...
So I really left for awhile. I don't think I've ever only had 2 blogs in a month. A lot has happened in the past weeks. So much in fact, I wouldn't even know where to start on an update. It's so blurry and so menacing in some ways. My blogs for awhile will be dark, will be vague and will be a lot of jumbled thoughts. I've reached a critical part of my life where doing the right thing doesn't necessarily mean it was the right thing for me. Unfortuantely, people tend to get hurt when such changes occur and that is by far, the hardest part. Mistakes have been made. That is life and it is how we learn. Unforgiveable, hard to say right now. Really causes one to disect herself.
I am working on me. I am finding out what makes me "tick." I mean I enjoy many aspects of my life but I live in fear. "Well who doesn't?" You may ask. Good point but my fear is fixable. This particular fear is failure. From a person who is controlling, the idea of not being able to control a situation or outcome in this case, does not sit well. So somewhere in past years I decided, well subconsciously, to not try at all. Can't fail if you don't put yourself out there.
So in stepping outside of myself and looking at all the things I do I really wonder why I keep certain things in my life that really just give me a lot of grief and don't make me happy. I am working on ways of thinning and it is coming along but as with anything, it takes time. I am more importantly, adding things I've always wanted to do but was afraid to. We'll see where that gets me.
Vague? Yes I know but this is more about reflection pieces for myself. So do with it, as you please.
So I really left for awhile. I don't think I've ever only had 2 blogs in a month. A lot has happened in the past weeks. So much in fact, I wouldn't even know where to start on an update. It's so blurry and so menacing in some ways. My blogs for awhile will be dark, will be vague and will be a lot of jumbled thoughts. I've reached a critical part of my life where doing the right thing doesn't necessarily mean it was the right thing for me. Unfortuantely, people tend to get hurt when such changes occur and that is by far, the hardest part. Mistakes have been made. That is life and it is how we learn. Unforgiveable, hard to say right now. Really causes one to disect herself.
I am working on me. I am finding out what makes me "tick." I mean I enjoy many aspects of my life but I live in fear. "Well who doesn't?" You may ask. Good point but my fear is fixable. This particular fear is failure. From a person who is controlling, the idea of not being able to control a situation or outcome in this case, does not sit well. So somewhere in past years I decided, well subconsciously, to not try at all. Can't fail if you don't put yourself out there.
So in stepping outside of myself and looking at all the things I do I really wonder why I keep certain things in my life that really just give me a lot of grief and don't make me happy. I am working on ways of thinning and it is coming along but as with anything, it takes time. I am more importantly, adding things I've always wanted to do but was afraid to. We'll see where that gets me.
Vague? Yes I know but this is more about reflection pieces for myself. So do with it, as you please.
Monday, June 11, 2007
Pics and ramblings of sorts.
I've decided that I really am too busy but where do I cut out parts of who I am? How does one trim their life? I love every thing that I participate in but do I participate too much? I would like to say no. I would like to say that I can add more because over time I have actually let some things in my life that are what my body and soul are made of... just let them go. I'm taking an even bigger interest in Astrological Signs. I've always been fascinated but I've never taken to the time to learn how to embrace the other signs around me. Why do I get along better with some rather than others? Being the fish that has trouble being tied down, I am very free flowing and artsy, if you will. The Pisces sign is 2 fish swimming away from one another to explore and be free, bound by a single line, that one line is what keeps them grounded but not by much. Pretty much nailed that one on the head. I always get distracted by "shiny objects" and want to learn and see more. I'm constantly wanting to change and evolve, it's funny really. So that's the basics of what I've touched on. I'm getting ready to go deeper, reading charts and really learning how to cater to myself as a Fish :)
I've decided that I really am too busy but where do I cut out parts of who I am? How does one trim their life? I love every thing that I participate in but do I participate too much? I would like to say no. I would like to say that I can add more because over time I have actually let some things in my life that are what my body and soul are made of... just let them go. I'm taking an even bigger interest in Astrological Signs. I've always been fascinated but I've never taken to the time to learn how to embrace the other signs around me. Why do I get along better with some rather than others? Being the fish that has trouble being tied down, I am very free flowing and artsy, if you will. The Pisces sign is 2 fish swimming away from one another to explore and be free, bound by a single line, that one line is what keeps them grounded but not by much. Pretty much nailed that one on the head. I always get distracted by "shiny objects" and want to learn and see more. I'm constantly wanting to change and evolve, it's funny really. So that's the basics of what I've touched on. I'm getting ready to go deeper, reading charts and really learning how to cater to myself as a Fish :)
Friday, June 01, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
We'll Always Have Paris
So I fell off the Blogging bandwagon but for good reason, I've been on one of the most awesome road trips ever. I'll start where any story should start, at the beginning. This event has been in the making for awhile. We've had this weekend blocked for some time and we're so very happy it worked out. Two of our friends had a Commitment Ceremony in Zion National Park in Utah. Other key characters in said story are: Alix & Adonis, aka Lex and Spin.
So last Monday, 5/21/07 began a rigorous work week (it may have only been 3 days but it consisted of getting A LOT of work done, along with meetings in the evenings, packing and prepping for our 3 state trip, well 4 if you count our own). Monday went off without a hitch, got work done, got through a meeting early, cleaned out my car and did some laundry. Tuesday I really started to feel the pressure. I had to make sure I had all of my camera equipment, film and other vital parts. Work seemed to be getting busier rather than lighter. I had to do my best to get as much done as possible seeing as how when I got back, I would only have 3 days to close the month and most of you know how bad my "end of the month" is already. Wednesday found me pounding caffeine, after energy drink, after caffeine to get through my day, I got a lot accomplished but I wished it had been more. At 4:01pm I found myself flying down the highway to Burbank Airport to pick up Lex and Spin. I arrived right around 5:30ish. I was wandering around in the wrong area for a few minutes. After calling Lex and figuring out there was more than one sign that said "Terminal A Baggage Claim" we found one another. I gave my old friend a big hug and shook hands with Spin. We headed back toward Bakersfield with a short stop in Valencia at BJ's for some pizza.
Arriving at the house, we sat around and talked for a bit. Erin had to get to bed since she had to work the next day and I had a lot of errands to run. Thursday morning consisted of running all over town, packing and picking up Erin in Arvin at 12:30pm. We stopped at Jack in Box in Tehachapi which they do not have back East, so Lex & Spin enjoyed it very much. Spin decided to fashion "Honey Mustard Coutour" on his shirt. This became a running joke all weekend as we quickly found, Spin is somewhat notorious about getting stains on his shirts. Fast forward to State line where we stopped at the Outlet to spend an hour in Old Navy before finishing the last leg of our trip for the day. Checked into the Stratosphere then headed to the Palms to watch Pirates of the Caribbean 3. The theater had reclining seats and lots of yummy popcorn. We wandered around the hotel after the movie then headed to bed because the next day was the next leg of our trip to Utah.
After some breakfast, a trip to Best Buy to get Erin a DS and some last minute directions from Shay, we were back on the road. We traveled N on the 15 toward a corner of Arizona, then into Utah. Which may I add, loved the 75mph speed limit! Stopped to get snacks, gas and Krispy Kreme donuts along the way. I really am glad I carry 900 songs on the iPod, I was in heaven listening to so much music this trip. We got to the Majestic View Lodge, checked in, saw our friends, got ready and became confused. None of us knew we were now on Mountain time, lesson learned. So we lost an hour, went downstairs pool side to meet some family and friends. Had a really good time and enjoyed the specialty: Thai Peanut Chicken Pizza! It was super great. Since bottles weren't allowed in the pool area people had to make trips to the back of the car to drink or bring back little plastic cups full. Everyone turned in fairly early. I tried to be sleepy but night time is my time, so I stayed awake watching TV.
Next thing I know Erin is getting us up to get ready to hike. After some miscommunication, Lex, Spin and I caught the shuttle to the park and met Erin on the Shuttle that actually went into the park. Erin happened to pick the trail that was the very last stop and where we would be later in the day for the ceremony; The Temple of Sinawava/Narrows. The trail was really easy and a lot quicker than we thought. Sidebar: I bought a Pokemon game for the DS and had been playing the night before, one of the first things you learn in the game is to "Stay out of the tall grass or wild Pokemon will attack." So here we go into the trail and not 5 minutes in and I'm kind of lagging behind because I'm too busy looking around and off to my left is some tall grass and I start giggling to myself because I'm thinking, "I wonder if there are wild Pokemon in there." So I'm laughing harder and doing my best to be quiet but Spin turns around and catches me with a big ol' cheesy grin on my face and asks me what is so funny. So when I point over to the tall grass and say, "I saw the tall grass." He knew exactly what I was talking about and immediately started laughing. We all had a good chuckle. It's pretty bad when you relate games to real life but whatever, we're super cool... Back to the end of the hike (cont.) The tricky part was in order to get to the really super cool caves you had to head upstream. You literally had to walk in the river on rocks. We didn't have the right shoes so we decided to try it barefoot. It worked for about 3 crossings, then we came to a fairly big clearing that showed a lot more rocks and water and a turn we couldn't see around to know if that was really the end of it. Time being against us we decided to stop here. We took some pictures, acted a little silly (well that was pretty much the whole time) and headed back. We were all starving and opted to eat at the little cafe and let me say they make a hell of a bacon cheeseburger. We rushed back to the room, 4 of us got ready in 40 minutes and headed back to which we had just come. Luckily, we were only 5 minutes late. However, we weren't last.
Shay's mom and some of her aunt's were MIA. No one knew where they were, the last anyone knew they had stopped about 1/2 way up the hill for lunch and then they were suppose to be on their way. Kate even went so far as to have a driver dispatch to all the shuttles looking for "4 elderly women" not my words :) Different people walked part of the trail, thinking they might have tried it but no one really thought they would try to go all the way. Now when I say that, not only did they finish the entire trail but they walked in the water and rocks just as we had! Good job women! Thankfully, an hour later, red faced and a little winded they came walking up. No one was hurt, just a little thirsty.
We walked down a little ways and found a nice log for everyone to sit on. I had my cameras out in full force, trying to capture everything I could. Sidebar: I'd like to thank my shelf assistant, Erin and my lens/camera assistant Spin to whom made taking pictures that much easier. Thanks guys :) It was a very impromptu ceremony and I think that contributed to it being so special. I can honestly say I've known these two from the start and it was super awesome to witness something so simple and special... congrats again, girls.
We were all pretty hungry at this point and piled on some shuttles and headed back to the lodge to grab some dinner. It was all super yummy! Everyone was pretty tired and headed back to their rooms. I laid on the bed listening to my iPod, the other 3 laid around playing their DS's. It was nice to just relax. About 9ish my phone rang, Kate wanted to know if we wanted to tag along for some karaoke. 3 of the 4 agreed, what the hell, why not? Spin had been a sleep for an hour and pretty much didn't wake up till the next morning. So we went to the only bar in town to find out there was a "membership only" rule in Utah in order to function as a bar. WTF?!?! However, they can sell us a "temporary" membership. Okay dude, see we are from the West Coast, not some remote city with a population of 104, it's called a Cover Charge. Sheesh. Anyway, it cost us a $1.00 a person. Um, okay mister Utah man, we'll find some way to wrangle up $8.00. *rolls eyes* So we got some drinks, played some pool, listened to a fairly decent band and enjoyed our time out. We were back in the lodge by 10:30pm. I was wide awake and bored. I decided to clean the room up, pre-pack for tomorrows trip back to Vegas, then get online and find something to read. Finally, at 1:40am when I finished my latest Alex Tryst story I went to bed.
8:30am and I was awakened by that damn Sun. Don't get me wrong, I know we need it to grow food and all that crap but it's so damn bright! Worse, I was hungry. If I get too hungry, I get cranky. No one wants that. Erin got up and we left the kids to grab some breakfast. It was super yummy and I was ready to be back on the road. We loaded up and were on our way. Stopped for some fresh water and more donuts and rolled into Vegas about 12:30pm. Since check in wasn't for awhile, I had some film to drop off and we went to the outlet mall for a bit. Bought some random things and I bought my second camera bag for the weekend. Turns out the one I thought would be perfect was too small but my old standby, Ritz Camera, had exactly what I needed. They even had dropped the price of the Nikon D200, ooh la la. Soon. I'm waiting for their 2 new releases and then it will go down to the price of the D80. Woohoo! Anyway, we headed back to pick up the pictures and they came out pretty good. I had a couple of favorites.
We checked in to the Paris, lugged all our crap upstairs to a labyrinth of rooms and I grabbed my "lazy" clothes and took a shower. I pulled out the picture Cd's from Costco and started loading them onto the computer to add borders and such. Spin had found "Charm School" on VH1, it was a marathon. I had never heard of this show. Most of you know my availability to watch TV is of Not. So I was introduced to Mo'nique and her "students." Holy shit. I watched/listened to the show and I can't believe how tacky these girls are. What "charms" are they learning? That is truly my only question because really all I saw was a lot of cat fights. Although, it really was funny and channels have to get ratings somehow. Spin was so awesome with mimicking these chicks, it was damn hilarious. Let me just say, everything is better with Spin'isms. My back seat and road trips will never be the same having ridden with Spin & Lex. Their banter is simply hilarious, always having to one up the other, you're constantly laughing.
So we were in Sin City and for 3 hours we laid around, watched Charm School/played with DS's. Wow, what wild animals we were. Finally, around 7:ish I finished up with my stuff, called Shay and met her and Kate to show them the pictures. I came back up to the room and we decided to walk down the strip. With no real plans we decided to take the kids to their mecca: Gameworks. First, we stopped off this to eat in the little Mexican Restaurant. I decided drinking fast was the way to go. Good choice, I was happy and ready to play. We spent a good couple hours at Gameworks then headed back to the hotel at Midnight since they closed. Erin went up to room shortly after gambling a little. The 3 of us wandered around a bit, decided we wanted something, walked outside and headed toward a 7-11 to get some Slurpee's and snacks. Finally making our way back upstairs, I'll never forget sitting there watching Spin & Lex argue which hallway our room actually was in. We spent our last night together in Paris and it was wonderful.
Erin was up early, the rest of us slept till about 9:30am. We packed up our stuff for the last time and headed downstairs. This time, Erin and I went to the car alone. Spin and Lex dropped their luggage off in Kate & Shay's room and we headed off to breakfast. That was an event within itself. The 6 of us together for the last time. Lots of laughter, lots of teasing about math, Erin choking because Shay was trying to kill her by saying she didn't use math everyday, everyone giving me shit because mimosas are my new water and someone *coughs Lex* not liking ham. There was so much more and I wish I could remember everything but this is long enough.
We trickled back to the top and gathered in a small circle. 5 days prior I held out my hand to shake Spins. Now, in his embrace, I didn't want to ever let go. Two years was way too long since I last saw my sweet little Lex. Thankfully, Kate and Shay moved to Northern California about 2 months ago and we'll be seeing them more. We're planning a trip to Yosemite in October, that should be awesome!
I'm glad everyone is home safe. I miss "the crew" so much. I can't wait till it's time to see everyone again. I will upload some pictures soon. I have to go have more discs made, they messed up my order, amateurs.
Thanks for the great memories everyone. You've reminded me of truly special things in life and an even more special place for them to happen in.
So I fell off the Blogging bandwagon but for good reason, I've been on one of the most awesome road trips ever. I'll start where any story should start, at the beginning. This event has been in the making for awhile. We've had this weekend blocked for some time and we're so very happy it worked out. Two of our friends had a Commitment Ceremony in Zion National Park in Utah. Other key characters in said story are: Alix & Adonis, aka Lex and Spin.
So last Monday, 5/21/07 began a rigorous work week (it may have only been 3 days but it consisted of getting A LOT of work done, along with meetings in the evenings, packing and prepping for our 3 state trip, well 4 if you count our own). Monday went off without a hitch, got work done, got through a meeting early, cleaned out my car and did some laundry. Tuesday I really started to feel the pressure. I had to make sure I had all of my camera equipment, film and other vital parts. Work seemed to be getting busier rather than lighter. I had to do my best to get as much done as possible seeing as how when I got back, I would only have 3 days to close the month and most of you know how bad my "end of the month" is already. Wednesday found me pounding caffeine, after energy drink, after caffeine to get through my day, I got a lot accomplished but I wished it had been more. At 4:01pm I found myself flying down the highway to Burbank Airport to pick up Lex and Spin. I arrived right around 5:30ish. I was wandering around in the wrong area for a few minutes. After calling Lex and figuring out there was more than one sign that said "Terminal A Baggage Claim" we found one another. I gave my old friend a big hug and shook hands with Spin. We headed back toward Bakersfield with a short stop in Valencia at BJ's for some pizza.
Arriving at the house, we sat around and talked for a bit. Erin had to get to bed since she had to work the next day and I had a lot of errands to run. Thursday morning consisted of running all over town, packing and picking up Erin in Arvin at 12:30pm. We stopped at Jack in Box in Tehachapi which they do not have back East, so Lex & Spin enjoyed it very much. Spin decided to fashion "Honey Mustard Coutour" on his shirt. This became a running joke all weekend as we quickly found, Spin is somewhat notorious about getting stains on his shirts. Fast forward to State line where we stopped at the Outlet to spend an hour in Old Navy before finishing the last leg of our trip for the day. Checked into the Stratosphere then headed to the Palms to watch Pirates of the Caribbean 3. The theater had reclining seats and lots of yummy popcorn. We wandered around the hotel after the movie then headed to bed because the next day was the next leg of our trip to Utah.
After some breakfast, a trip to Best Buy to get Erin a DS and some last minute directions from Shay, we were back on the road. We traveled N on the 15 toward a corner of Arizona, then into Utah. Which may I add, loved the 75mph speed limit! Stopped to get snacks, gas and Krispy Kreme donuts along the way. I really am glad I carry 900 songs on the iPod, I was in heaven listening to so much music this trip. We got to the Majestic View Lodge, checked in, saw our friends, got ready and became confused. None of us knew we were now on Mountain time, lesson learned. So we lost an hour, went downstairs pool side to meet some family and friends. Had a really good time and enjoyed the specialty: Thai Peanut Chicken Pizza! It was super great. Since bottles weren't allowed in the pool area people had to make trips to the back of the car to drink or bring back little plastic cups full. Everyone turned in fairly early. I tried to be sleepy but night time is my time, so I stayed awake watching TV.
Next thing I know Erin is getting us up to get ready to hike. After some miscommunication, Lex, Spin and I caught the shuttle to the park and met Erin on the Shuttle that actually went into the park. Erin happened to pick the trail that was the very last stop and where we would be later in the day for the ceremony; The Temple of Sinawava/Narrows. The trail was really easy and a lot quicker than we thought. Sidebar: I bought a Pokemon game for the DS and had been playing the night before, one of the first things you learn in the game is to "Stay out of the tall grass or wild Pokemon will attack." So here we go into the trail and not 5 minutes in and I'm kind of lagging behind because I'm too busy looking around and off to my left is some tall grass and I start giggling to myself because I'm thinking, "I wonder if there are wild Pokemon in there." So I'm laughing harder and doing my best to be quiet but Spin turns around and catches me with a big ol' cheesy grin on my face and asks me what is so funny. So when I point over to the tall grass and say, "I saw the tall grass." He knew exactly what I was talking about and immediately started laughing. We all had a good chuckle. It's pretty bad when you relate games to real life but whatever, we're super cool... Back to the end of the hike (cont.) The tricky part was in order to get to the really super cool caves you had to head upstream. You literally had to walk in the river on rocks. We didn't have the right shoes so we decided to try it barefoot. It worked for about 3 crossings, then we came to a fairly big clearing that showed a lot more rocks and water and a turn we couldn't see around to know if that was really the end of it. Time being against us we decided to stop here. We took some pictures, acted a little silly (well that was pretty much the whole time) and headed back. We were all starving and opted to eat at the little cafe and let me say they make a hell of a bacon cheeseburger. We rushed back to the room, 4 of us got ready in 40 minutes and headed back to which we had just come. Luckily, we were only 5 minutes late. However, we weren't last.
Shay's mom and some of her aunt's were MIA. No one knew where they were, the last anyone knew they had stopped about 1/2 way up the hill for lunch and then they were suppose to be on their way. Kate even went so far as to have a driver dispatch to all the shuttles looking for "4 elderly women" not my words :) Different people walked part of the trail, thinking they might have tried it but no one really thought they would try to go all the way. Now when I say that, not only did they finish the entire trail but they walked in the water and rocks just as we had! Good job women! Thankfully, an hour later, red faced and a little winded they came walking up. No one was hurt, just a little thirsty.
We walked down a little ways and found a nice log for everyone to sit on. I had my cameras out in full force, trying to capture everything I could. Sidebar: I'd like to thank my shelf assistant, Erin and my lens/camera assistant Spin to whom made taking pictures that much easier. Thanks guys :) It was a very impromptu ceremony and I think that contributed to it being so special. I can honestly say I've known these two from the start and it was super awesome to witness something so simple and special... congrats again, girls.
We were all pretty hungry at this point and piled on some shuttles and headed back to the lodge to grab some dinner. It was all super yummy! Everyone was pretty tired and headed back to their rooms. I laid on the bed listening to my iPod, the other 3 laid around playing their DS's. It was nice to just relax. About 9ish my phone rang, Kate wanted to know if we wanted to tag along for some karaoke. 3 of the 4 agreed, what the hell, why not? Spin had been a sleep for an hour and pretty much didn't wake up till the next morning. So we went to the only bar in town to find out there was a "membership only" rule in Utah in order to function as a bar. WTF?!?! However, they can sell us a "temporary" membership. Okay dude, see we are from the West Coast, not some remote city with a population of 104, it's called a Cover Charge. Sheesh. Anyway, it cost us a $1.00 a person. Um, okay mister Utah man, we'll find some way to wrangle up $8.00. *rolls eyes* So we got some drinks, played some pool, listened to a fairly decent band and enjoyed our time out. We were back in the lodge by 10:30pm. I was wide awake and bored. I decided to clean the room up, pre-pack for tomorrows trip back to Vegas, then get online and find something to read. Finally, at 1:40am when I finished my latest Alex Tryst story I went to bed.
8:30am and I was awakened by that damn Sun. Don't get me wrong, I know we need it to grow food and all that crap but it's so damn bright! Worse, I was hungry. If I get too hungry, I get cranky. No one wants that. Erin got up and we left the kids to grab some breakfast. It was super yummy and I was ready to be back on the road. We loaded up and were on our way. Stopped for some fresh water and more donuts and rolled into Vegas about 12:30pm. Since check in wasn't for awhile, I had some film to drop off and we went to the outlet mall for a bit. Bought some random things and I bought my second camera bag for the weekend. Turns out the one I thought would be perfect was too small but my old standby, Ritz Camera, had exactly what I needed. They even had dropped the price of the Nikon D200, ooh la la. Soon. I'm waiting for their 2 new releases and then it will go down to the price of the D80. Woohoo! Anyway, we headed back to pick up the pictures and they came out pretty good. I had a couple of favorites.
We checked in to the Paris, lugged all our crap upstairs to a labyrinth of rooms and I grabbed my "lazy" clothes and took a shower. I pulled out the picture Cd's from Costco and started loading them onto the computer to add borders and such. Spin had found "Charm School" on VH1, it was a marathon. I had never heard of this show. Most of you know my availability to watch TV is of Not. So I was introduced to Mo'nique and her "students." Holy shit. I watched/listened to the show and I can't believe how tacky these girls are. What "charms" are they learning? That is truly my only question because really all I saw was a lot of cat fights. Although, it really was funny and channels have to get ratings somehow. Spin was so awesome with mimicking these chicks, it was damn hilarious. Let me just say, everything is better with Spin'isms. My back seat and road trips will never be the same having ridden with Spin & Lex. Their banter is simply hilarious, always having to one up the other, you're constantly laughing.
So we were in Sin City and for 3 hours we laid around, watched Charm School/played with DS's. Wow, what wild animals we were. Finally, around 7:ish I finished up with my stuff, called Shay and met her and Kate to show them the pictures. I came back up to the room and we decided to walk down the strip. With no real plans we decided to take the kids to their mecca: Gameworks. First, we stopped off this to eat in the little Mexican Restaurant. I decided drinking fast was the way to go. Good choice, I was happy and ready to play. We spent a good couple hours at Gameworks then headed back to the hotel at Midnight since they closed. Erin went up to room shortly after gambling a little. The 3 of us wandered around a bit, decided we wanted something, walked outside and headed toward a 7-11 to get some Slurpee's and snacks. Finally making our way back upstairs, I'll never forget sitting there watching Spin & Lex argue which hallway our room actually was in. We spent our last night together in Paris and it was wonderful.
Erin was up early, the rest of us slept till about 9:30am. We packed up our stuff for the last time and headed downstairs. This time, Erin and I went to the car alone. Spin and Lex dropped their luggage off in Kate & Shay's room and we headed off to breakfast. That was an event within itself. The 6 of us together for the last time. Lots of laughter, lots of teasing about math, Erin choking because Shay was trying to kill her by saying she didn't use math everyday, everyone giving me shit because mimosas are my new water and someone *coughs Lex* not liking ham. There was so much more and I wish I could remember everything but this is long enough.
We trickled back to the top and gathered in a small circle. 5 days prior I held out my hand to shake Spins. Now, in his embrace, I didn't want to ever let go. Two years was way too long since I last saw my sweet little Lex. Thankfully, Kate and Shay moved to Northern California about 2 months ago and we'll be seeing them more. We're planning a trip to Yosemite in October, that should be awesome!
I'm glad everyone is home safe. I miss "the crew" so much. I can't wait till it's time to see everyone again. I will upload some pictures soon. I have to go have more discs made, they messed up my order, amateurs.
Thanks for the great memories everyone. You've reminded me of truly special things in life and an even more special place for them to happen in.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
Hello
I really don't have anything other than that. My mind is pretty much scrambled. I once again, am in way over my head. *wiggles fingers* SHOCKER
I've had to result to pure caffine. I think my heart is fluttering instead of beating. Creepy. So hope y'alls Friday is flying like mine. I'll catch ya later gaters. Later gaters? *shakes head* Geez.
I really don't have anything other than that. My mind is pretty much scrambled. I once again, am in way over my head. *wiggles fingers* SHOCKER
I've had to result to pure caffine. I think my heart is fluttering instead of beating. Creepy. So hope y'alls Friday is flying like mine. I'll catch ya later gaters. Later gaters? *shakes head* Geez.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Sleepy and Dopey.
You may be thinking of 2 of the 7 dwarves. Actually, I'm describing myself. I pretty much have the same problem daily. I'm sleepy. So logically you might think: "wow, she should go to bed earlier." You would be correct. However, being the dope that I am, I tend to stay up just as late, if not later, trying to get so very many things accomplished.
Usually by Thursday night, I'm going to bed by 10:00pm, which I know some of you wince at but that really is early for me. Then Friday comes. Oh the Friday. I end up staying up till 1 or 2 in the morning, sleep till 9:00am, assuming I don't have to be somewhere early, find some time to take a nap in the afternoon and stay up just as late Saturday night. So by Sunday night, I'm completely set up to fail at going to bed early because I'm wide awake at 10:00pm.
Someday I'll figure it out, for now, I'm having fun with all the things in my life :)
You may be thinking of 2 of the 7 dwarves. Actually, I'm describing myself. I pretty much have the same problem daily. I'm sleepy. So logically you might think: "wow, she should go to bed earlier." You would be correct. However, being the dope that I am, I tend to stay up just as late, if not later, trying to get so very many things accomplished.
Usually by Thursday night, I'm going to bed by 10:00pm, which I know some of you wince at but that really is early for me. Then Friday comes. Oh the Friday. I end up staying up till 1 or 2 in the morning, sleep till 9:00am, assuming I don't have to be somewhere early, find some time to take a nap in the afternoon and stay up just as late Saturday night. So by Sunday night, I'm completely set up to fail at going to bed early because I'm wide awake at 10:00pm.
Someday I'll figure it out, for now, I'm having fun with all the things in my life :)
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
R.I.P. Office Chair
My work chair has died. It may just look like a broken arm but it's oh so much more. This is the 3rd set of bolts to fall out. I'm not sure where the other 2 came from but nothing fell off when those came out. Kinda scary really. I went to sit down and I put my hand on it and it just flew to the ground. I've been here 5.5 years and so has that chair, so I guess it really was time for a new one. It's ripped, full of dirt, has some spots of oil and well it's falling apart, literally.
Services will be today at 11:00am by the dumpster.
"It served my butt well for years but it's time for it to roll on to the great office in the sky."
It will be sorely missed.
Sidebar: Kiss Totten was enjoying his last tumble on my chair.
My work chair has died. It may just look like a broken arm but it's oh so much more. This is the 3rd set of bolts to fall out. I'm not sure where the other 2 came from but nothing fell off when those came out. Kinda scary really. I went to sit down and I put my hand on it and it just flew to the ground. I've been here 5.5 years and so has that chair, so I guess it really was time for a new one. It's ripped, full of dirt, has some spots of oil and well it's falling apart, literally.
Services will be today at 11:00am by the dumpster.
"It served my butt well for years but it's time for it to roll on to the great office in the sky."
It will be sorely missed.
Sidebar: Kiss Totten was enjoying his last tumble on my chair.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Closing a chapter in life.
Well softball is all done. It's very strange. I know I will continue to coach but it still feels like a chapter of my life is finished as next year when I step onto the field, Erin won't be there to lead the girls. That is very strange to me. I've enjoyed standing by her side for the past 5 years. Wow, I can't believe it's already been 5 years. We've had some graduate, we've had some give up and quit, we've kicked some off but we've learned something from everyone of those girls. I just hope they got something from us. I'm sure I'll be excited when next year rolls around but in my heart, I know it won't be the same...
Well softball is all done. It's very strange. I know I will continue to coach but it still feels like a chapter of my life is finished as next year when I step onto the field, Erin won't be there to lead the girls. That is very strange to me. I've enjoyed standing by her side for the past 5 years. Wow, I can't believe it's already been 5 years. We've had some graduate, we've had some give up and quit, we've kicked some off but we've learned something from everyone of those girls. I just hope they got something from us. I'm sure I'll be excited when next year rolls around but in my heart, I know it won't be the same...
Friday, May 04, 2007
iLife May 07
So my life is mad crazy. Day after day, hour after hour I have a lot to do. May is the new September. I figure it's only a matter of time before we are saying every month is like this. I certainly hope not but I can't say "never."
May is wrapping up softball. So the 1st 2 weeks is devoted to that. The 4th through the 6th we are at the beach for a wedding. Here is a list, this is where it gets fun:
8th - game till 5:30pm then meeting at 6:30pm - 8:30ish
10 - last game! :)
11 - Dodger game in L.A.
13 - Hippy Smoothers Day (taken from a cute radio ad)
14 - back to the gym; SSL softball meeting at 6:00pm
15 - Turtle meeting
16 - Spring Sports Banquet 6:00pm
17 - Office Season Finale Party at our house :)
18 - Dinner at friends house
19 - Tastefully Simple Open House Party at our house
21 - Meeting 6:30pm
22 - Executive board local Tortoise Meeting
23 - Going to Burbank from work to pick up Alix from airport
24 - Leave for Las Vegas/Zion - 28th
30 - Bunco
June 1 - Graduation
2 - Fresno Outing
So after all of that, we'll somewhat slow down, maybe, till people find out we're free :) So enjoy sitting at home watching your shows. We don't have any, we had to give them up...
So my life is mad crazy. Day after day, hour after hour I have a lot to do. May is the new September. I figure it's only a matter of time before we are saying every month is like this. I certainly hope not but I can't say "never."
May is wrapping up softball. So the 1st 2 weeks is devoted to that. The 4th through the 6th we are at the beach for a wedding. Here is a list, this is where it gets fun:
8th - game till 5:30pm then meeting at 6:30pm - 8:30ish
10 - last game! :)
11 - Dodger game in L.A.
13 - Hippy Smoothers Day (taken from a cute radio ad)
14 - back to the gym; SSL softball meeting at 6:00pm
15 - Turtle meeting
16 - Spring Sports Banquet 6:00pm
17 - Office Season Finale Party at our house :)
18 - Dinner at friends house
19 - Tastefully Simple Open House Party at our house
21 - Meeting 6:30pm
22 - Executive board local Tortoise Meeting
23 - Going to Burbank from work to pick up Alix from airport
24 - Leave for Las Vegas/Zion - 28th
30 - Bunco
June 1 - Graduation
2 - Fresno Outing
So after all of that, we'll somewhat slow down, maybe, till people find out we're free :) So enjoy sitting at home watching your shows. We don't have any, we had to give them up...
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Kiss Totten
This is my latest rescue. He walked in through my front door. Not literally, a woman from across the street brought him in a box. She said one of the guys saw him right before he got his body chopped in half in their machine shop. Yikes.
So I took him because she had no idea what to do and the poor little guy was lost and starving. Now 3 weeks later, he is super playful, he's a biter, he and Howie wrestle and he is a big ol' cry baby. My boss has offered to take him. His wife came in, saw him and wanted him right away. Since he was being bottle fed, they decided to wait. :)
I love him but I need to learn to let them go otherwise I have to give up rescueing and I most certaining do not want to do that.
So say hello to Kiss Totten. It should have been "don't toss the kitten." But when Erin-ese comes out, you really just never know. So we just call him KT sometimes. He's really cute and funny.
This is my latest rescue. He walked in through my front door. Not literally, a woman from across the street brought him in a box. She said one of the guys saw him right before he got his body chopped in half in their machine shop. Yikes.
So I took him because she had no idea what to do and the poor little guy was lost and starving. Now 3 weeks later, he is super playful, he's a biter, he and Howie wrestle and he is a big ol' cry baby. My boss has offered to take him. His wife came in, saw him and wanted him right away. Since he was being bottle fed, they decided to wait. :)
I love him but I need to learn to let them go otherwise I have to give up rescueing and I most certaining do not want to do that.
So say hello to Kiss Totten. It should have been "don't toss the kitten." But when Erin-ese comes out, you really just never know. So we just call him KT sometimes. He's really cute and funny.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
Turtles don't move slow, people do.
So I had my quarterly meeting for the Turtle & Tortoise club this past Saturday. We constantly are being informed of all the dangers and threats to the natural habitat for the Desert Tortoise. We are constantly faced with keeping up to date info on the care, feeding and husbandry of the DT. Unfortuntatly, when you get a room full of people who "know it all" you can become deadlocked very quickly. You've heard that phrase, "what works for one, doesn't necessarily work for another." Well if you have, then you are ahead of everyone else in this room. I have come to the conclusion that these people do not realize that each Chapter represented is from a different climate. So we, as humans, have to adapt to different climates, so do the DT's. You can not mandate husbandry guidelines that work for Orange County and expecting those to work in San Luis Obispo. It's kinda funny that people get in yelling matches over this stuff. It takes us months and months to get motions carried sometimes. Even though we had a somewhat productive meeting, it still took 4.5 hours. If we took after our hard shelled friends, we would notice that moving forward slowly is much more productive than running backwards.
So I had my quarterly meeting for the Turtle & Tortoise club this past Saturday. We constantly are being informed of all the dangers and threats to the natural habitat for the Desert Tortoise. We are constantly faced with keeping up to date info on the care, feeding and husbandry of the DT. Unfortuntatly, when you get a room full of people who "know it all" you can become deadlocked very quickly. You've heard that phrase, "what works for one, doesn't necessarily work for another." Well if you have, then you are ahead of everyone else in this room. I have come to the conclusion that these people do not realize that each Chapter represented is from a different climate. So we, as humans, have to adapt to different climates, so do the DT's. You can not mandate husbandry guidelines that work for Orange County and expecting those to work in San Luis Obispo. It's kinda funny that people get in yelling matches over this stuff. It takes us months and months to get motions carried sometimes. Even though we had a somewhat productive meeting, it still took 4.5 hours. If we took after our hard shelled friends, we would notice that moving forward slowly is much more productive than running backwards.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Get My Breakfast Wench!
As I am now feeding 7 cats every morning at work they (well 2 of them) are becoming a little more demanding of their food. This morning, in fact, when I opened the big doors, they came running up to me and did a very looonnng meeeooooooowwwww. I have figured the translation of this to mean: Give me my food Wench!
This morning, being the morning it was (read blog below) added something new to the long meow. Today, the little one took her paw and swiped at my foot twice. I looked down just in time to see her do it. Nothing with nails, just 2 little pats on top of my tennis shoe. I think this translates to: Put my food down, that is your warning, next I'll have to shank you with my nails.
"When Kittens Attack," tonight at 11:00pm.
As I am now feeding 7 cats every morning at work they (well 2 of them) are becoming a little more demanding of their food. This morning, in fact, when I opened the big doors, they came running up to me and did a very looonnng meeeooooooowwwww. I have figured the translation of this to mean: Give me my food Wench!
This morning, being the morning it was (read blog below) added something new to the long meow. Today, the little one took her paw and swiped at my foot twice. I looked down just in time to see her do it. Nothing with nails, just 2 little pats on top of my tennis shoe. I think this translates to: Put my food down, that is your warning, next I'll have to shank you with my nails.
"When Kittens Attack," tonight at 11:00pm.
Pancakes with diced ham. Who?
So it's one of THOSE days. Let me let you enter here. <-- Since my day is that weird, good luck with that sentence. Let us venture back to a time on the clock that shows 3:45am. This is a time on the clock that I might see going to bed or sitting at my computer I think, "okay, it's almost 4:00am, I should probably get something to drink and head to bed soon." This is NOT, let me repeat, NOT, a time I like/enjoy/need/want to be woke up by the neighbors barking dog. This would be morning 2 now. She's done it on occasion but that's it. This is nuts. I will be speaking with said owner this evening.
So with lack of sleep on my side, heed my warning, stay the f*@# out of my way today people. I'm trying to put myself in mellow mode. This would be a switch from angry bitchy girl who'll throw a punch because you're shirt is ugly and in my line of sight. Brings us up to speed to breakfast.
I make my way to the local Shell station, I'm like Norm from Cheers in there. Everyone's nice and they always have what I need. Till Today. I go in to make a withdrawl from the ATM and order some food, then grab some bottled starbucks and corn nuts. Corn nuts for whatever reason, keep me awake and I like them. However, this is not an Ode to Corn Nuts so I will move on.
ATM is Temporarily Out of Service. I have to smile at this, really I do. So I walk up to cashier girl and ask if they do cash back on ATM buys, she says "No, sorry, we're not there yet." So no money, no food, no bottled Starbucks. I now am sure this is a test of wills and I have to figure out how to out-smart the day.
So I drag my sad little self out and decide to go to John's. Not as wonderful but a great backup. I pull in and order an omelette and some pancakes. Pancakes sounded really good. I think it was more about the syrup but ordering sides of syrup is truly strange. Anyway, I get back to the office and open up my pancakes and start pouring syrup all over them and dig in. Bite one, kinda cold and not very tasty at all. Bite 2, really not much better. Why am I still eating these? Bite 3, okay what the hell is in my mouth. *Graphic Scene* I spit out Bite 3 because some foreign texture was in mouth. Low and behold: a diced piece of ham. Alright, closed said container and threw those away. Now I'm left with a want for pancakes. This blows.
So this is my morning by 10:00am.
How's your day going?
So it's one of THOSE days. Let me let you enter here. <-- Since my day is that weird, good luck with that sentence. Let us venture back to a time on the clock that shows 3:45am. This is a time on the clock that I might see going to bed or sitting at my computer I think, "okay, it's almost 4:00am, I should probably get something to drink and head to bed soon." This is NOT, let me repeat, NOT, a time I like/enjoy/need/want to be woke up by the neighbors barking dog. This would be morning 2 now. She's done it on occasion but that's it. This is nuts. I will be speaking with said owner this evening.
So with lack of sleep on my side, heed my warning, stay the f*@# out of my way today people. I'm trying to put myself in mellow mode. This would be a switch from angry bitchy girl who'll throw a punch because you're shirt is ugly and in my line of sight. Brings us up to speed to breakfast.
I make my way to the local Shell station, I'm like Norm from Cheers in there. Everyone's nice and they always have what I need. Till Today. I go in to make a withdrawl from the ATM and order some food, then grab some bottled starbucks and corn nuts. Corn nuts for whatever reason, keep me awake and I like them. However, this is not an Ode to Corn Nuts so I will move on.
ATM is Temporarily Out of Service. I have to smile at this, really I do. So I walk up to cashier girl and ask if they do cash back on ATM buys, she says "No, sorry, we're not there yet." So no money, no food, no bottled Starbucks. I now am sure this is a test of wills and I have to figure out how to out-smart the day.
So I drag my sad little self out and decide to go to John's. Not as wonderful but a great backup. I pull in and order an omelette and some pancakes. Pancakes sounded really good. I think it was more about the syrup but ordering sides of syrup is truly strange. Anyway, I get back to the office and open up my pancakes and start pouring syrup all over them and dig in. Bite one, kinda cold and not very tasty at all. Bite 2, really not much better. Why am I still eating these? Bite 3, okay what the hell is in my mouth. *Graphic Scene* I spit out Bite 3 because some foreign texture was in mouth. Low and behold: a diced piece of ham. Alright, closed said container and threw those away. Now I'm left with a want for pancakes. This blows.
So this is my morning by 10:00am.
How's your day going?
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Lappy
So I got a laptop. It was inevitable. All the of the groups/meetings/committee type thingies I do work in Windows and creating/transferring documents just doesn't work very easily. I know it's not impossible but it's a pain in my ass and that's the only opinion that matters. Anyway, we were browsing and around and it just so happened that one in particular I was looking at was on a 2 day sale and was $400.00 off! Okay, check please, we'll take it! The excitement dies here. So far setting up computers is never my favorite. I've been installing, uninstalling, setting to my likes, looking for old cd's, trying to figure out this and that but the end all of end alls began yesterday. Or what I like to call: Day 4 of Hell.
Went down to Verizon to get a PC Wireless card. Can't. Why you ask? Because I'm not the lead on the account. REALLY? Cause it was my account to start and I added Erin on, so how'd that happen... Next. Come back 3 hours later with said laptop. Pick out card, get all checked out (an hour later). Told, "oh it's so easy, you just pop in the CD, install the software and plug in the PC card and that's it." Liar Liar I want to start your ass on fire. Go back AGAIN at 8:30pm last night to be told I have to call a Data Line Tech Number and that before we left, the sales Chickie should have helped us install and sync the damn thing before we left! Bitch. Then I get home to call the tech number... that number doesn't work. Are you F'N KIDDING ME PEOPLE!?!?
So right now, there is a worthless PC Card sitting at home. Customer Service... I remember hearing about it when I was a kid, it's definitely not around anymore. This is pure crap.
So I got a laptop. It was inevitable. All the of the groups/meetings/committee type thingies I do work in Windows and creating/transferring documents just doesn't work very easily. I know it's not impossible but it's a pain in my ass and that's the only opinion that matters. Anyway, we were browsing and around and it just so happened that one in particular I was looking at was on a 2 day sale and was $400.00 off! Okay, check please, we'll take it! The excitement dies here. So far setting up computers is never my favorite. I've been installing, uninstalling, setting to my likes, looking for old cd's, trying to figure out this and that but the end all of end alls began yesterday. Or what I like to call: Day 4 of Hell.
Went down to Verizon to get a PC Wireless card. Can't. Why you ask? Because I'm not the lead on the account. REALLY? Cause it was my account to start and I added Erin on, so how'd that happen... Next. Come back 3 hours later with said laptop. Pick out card, get all checked out (an hour later). Told, "oh it's so easy, you just pop in the CD, install the software and plug in the PC card and that's it." Liar Liar I want to start your ass on fire. Go back AGAIN at 8:30pm last night to be told I have to call a Data Line Tech Number and that before we left, the sales Chickie should have helped us install and sync the damn thing before we left! Bitch. Then I get home to call the tech number... that number doesn't work. Are you F'N KIDDING ME PEOPLE!?!?
So right now, there is a worthless PC Card sitting at home. Customer Service... I remember hearing about it when I was a kid, it's definitely not around anymore. This is pure crap.
Spring Baseball err... Break
So Erin is on break right now. I do not know what that means. However, it just so happens the community college has a softball game today at 5:00pm. We're going down to L.A. to watch the Angels play on Thursday night. Friday we are going to watch U.C.L.A. softball and Saturday there is a double header at Cal State Bakersfield. YAY for all of the competitive softball. And geocaching, can't forget all of the geocaching. Site to be updated soon. :)
So Erin is on break right now. I do not know what that means. However, it just so happens the community college has a softball game today at 5:00pm. We're going down to L.A. to watch the Angels play on Thursday night. Friday we are going to watch U.C.L.A. softball and Saturday there is a double header at Cal State Bakersfield. YAY for all of the competitive softball. And geocaching, can't forget all of the geocaching. Site to be updated soon. :)
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