6ws:

"All these words, Looking for Confirmation."

Inner Peace

If you can start the day without caffeine,
If you can always be cheerful, ignoring aches and pains,
If you can resist complaining and boring people with your troubles,
If you can eat the same food every day and be grateful for it,
If you can understand when your loved ones are too busy to give you any time,
If you can take criticism and blame without resentment,
If you can conquer tension without medical help,
If you can relax without alcohol,
If you can sleep without the aid of drugs.

How did you answer these...

TV Thought:

"Do you want to be with someone who tolerates your quirks or someone who thinks your quirks are adorable?"

Things I carry with me daily...

Her Love
~on days when there seems to be quicksand in every direction, gusty winds and rain without an umbrella, no light at the end of a tunnel, her love keeps me moving. on days when birds sing all around me, the sun shines on any path I walk on, she smiles at me, her love keeps me moving.

My parents
~I'm blessed with some of the greatest parents anyone could ever ask for. Unconditional love, encouragement, praise and support. I really do hope I get to keep them around for a long, long time.

Spreading Good Karma
~in the form of baking. I'm loving this new venture and really do hope it will just keep growing and flourishing. I just want to keep getting better.

Music
~good for the body (at gym), the mind (keeps my mood where I need it to be) and the soul (let in the peace)

Red Bull
~my worst new addiction, I plan to fix it soon. I'm 2 weeks in and up to 2 (12oz cans) a day but I can't keep this all peaches and roses. It's about being honest here kiddies.

This list is ever changing and growing...

Oh, I failed to mention...


I see more turmoil then usual online lately (and that makes me wonder how much is going on that is unsaid as well) and my heart goes out to any and all of my friends in pain right now. I hope you find your way and soon. Some are dealing with the 'mistrust' of their partner or friends. So very sad indeed.

We have to wonder when a partner/friend begins to hide things they're doing or people for that matter. If it's "not a big deal" how come it isn't mentioned? It's these little things that turn BIG because of lack of honesty. Simply said, don't make excuses as to why you're hiding stuff. Of course the mind is going to wonder: is it because of unresolved feelings? Losing interest? New feelings? Longing for what was lost?

Remember that person across from you that says they love you? They mean it... do you and why the hiding?

Muse: Sand

We can only accomplish one task at a time even when many lay before us. Take care of each, not rushing to complete but gently give your love and attention. Tend to each like the precious seed it is and soon we shall be surrounded by a beautiful garden of flowers.

~aj

Sand

I was having a great conversation this morning with a friend. She asked how I was doing as of late since my last month was such a dismal, spiraling, personal hell. I answered, "very well." I took a moment on my birthday to regroup. I found what I was doing wrong, the extreme side of me took over and unfortunately, I couldn't see that at the time.

I grabbed a handful of sand from Love, Cake Business, My Parents/Family, Work, My Health and The House. I tried to grab all of them at once and hold on tight. Well, what happens when you grab a handful of sand? It slips through your fingers and you're only left with a few grains. My initial reaction to just grab and be able to handle it all, was the beginning of my demise. I forgot one simple thing: work smarter. Instead of grabbing buckets to carry the sand or asking for help, I thought I could get by with just a handful of each.

I am listening, very intently to those closely around me. There are some troubling signs there but I am ready to help in any way I can, keeping mind of my personal buckets of life that need careful care as well.

Moving forward slowly is still moving forward... remember that when you find yourself struggling in life.

Deepens

Our moments of our eyes getting lost in one anothers are growing and becoming more frequent.
I love that.

Your words and feelings are coming more freely to me.
I love you.

Our smiles and laughs together are our best play dates.
I love us.

My thoughts of "what's next?" remind me of what it feels like to be "twitterpated" daily.
Thank You for all of it and you...

Listening

Ever Question you're Inner Instinct? I must say, I do now. I will do my best to continue to see the best in people but next time, I may not be so "dive feet first."

Anyone else have to choke down a good intention?

Wearing this skin


A real-life script of how
Our hands would hold and not let go
But delay the mournful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message
That you taught me how to live at last
But I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we wave respect goodbye
In quest for what we long to be, but
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
Still missing you...

...But you're my everlasting friend.