"I really don't get it. How do you talk to guys like that? You have no fear, no convictions...I mean... damn! That guy was totally hot, well according to my friend. The most I can do is blink so at least he knew I was alive."

Tory looked down at her new friend and smiled.

Allie looked up at Tory... "what?!"

"Sweetie, I'm gay. I'd hit on you before I'd give him a second look." She took her hand off of Allie's shoulder, turned and headed down the street. "Now where the hell can I get a soda around here?"

Allie stood there blinking, once again, not saying one. damn. word.

*Notes for me*

I'm Crazy.

I always say that if I blog it, I've dealt with it and can move on. So that's what I'm doing. I'm having what some may call a "girl moment." I just have this stupid feeling inside and it's making it tough to concentrate. I know it's ridiculous, I know there is nothing to base it on and there just is nothing.
I think I'm trying to make up reasons not to work. I'm really tired and run down so the feeling makes sense in addition to the other surging hormones in my body. Even as I type this I feel stupid. However... I feel better.

Back to work. Onward and upward.

Cake, Cake & More Cake

So yeah, I'm not obsessed (maybe a little) with cake classes, cookie decorating, brownie mixes, Halloween desserts or anything. I just really love what I'm doing. I'm sad that classes with my current instructor will end soon but I'm finding that there are so many shops with classes and workshops that I should be able to take 1 a month for the rest of forever and that makes me happy.

In fact, I've joined a couple cake clubs in SoCal and I got my first invite to a workshop this Saturday. So as soon as I deliver my 1st official order of cupcakes, I should be on my way to Acton, CA to see a demo on "Elegant Cupcakes."

So happy and so excited!

This should be fun... Lex and I are fiercely competitive!

Assumptions = Mind Reading Capabilities
(Nothing of which I am capable of)

I think an epidemic is going around. People assume I know what they are thinking or planning or that something is wrong. It's not like 1 or 2 people I know, it's easily 2 handfuls. I'm tired. I have things going on and I'm sorry I'm not in good form to just "figure it out." I'm trying to let things go on the fly because I'm pretty fucking sure the health problems I have are from trying to deal with things I have no control over.

I don't know how much more crystal clear I can be than I am being right now;

IF you don't tell me all information at one time or your plans ahead of time, I. DO. NOT. KNOW.

IF you don't tell me something is wrong, I. DO. NOT. KNOW.

IF you need me or someone, tell me/them.

After reading this, don't ask me who, don't ask me what, don't mention anything. Consider this a Public Service Announcement or future advice and save everyone a lot of mind-fuck numbing agony.

No one can tell me they haven't been annoyed with this very thing... it's hard when people expect you to know things when they don't say anything to you. Remember that. You can save a lot of time if you just communicate with people. Communicate means to talk to a person, not yell. Coming at someone like a spider monkey will most certainly cause a very unnecessary fight. Pulling some bullshit 8 year old, "I'm going to ignore you because you don't get me" crap is most certainly not going to solve anything either. You may not be the ONLY person in the world with things going on. Just take a moment and THINK.

*claps hands* Done... and NOW I can enjoy my day.