Friday, October 26, 2007

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Our Story…

One night as the stars looked down upon the land they noticed two of their dreamers were unhappy. So much in fact they had almost completely lost their inner glow. They were so dim, in fact, the stars were alarmed at how they had almost overlooked them once more. As they gathered together and discussed who had been watching them, sadly, the two had just slipped through the stars' eyes night after night. Worried they had lost the two for good, the Old Wise Moon gathered them up and as he spoke the stars looked up to him in great awe.

"You see little stars, sometimes when you have the constant dreamers from such a young age, you may take for granted their souls will always shine bright to easily watch from above. Now as you have seen their natural glow and love for life can attract someone who may not quite be the right match for them but is intrigued at their ability to believe in things greater than can be explained by science and logic. They try to make everyone around them as happy as they are but sometimes it just doesn't work out. As they do not like to fail, they stay where they are and hope for the best. Unfortunately, the hope becomes dimmer and dimmer as does their own inner glow. They never notice it, constantly trying to fix the wrongs and holding up two people can be very difficult for one little empty soul. Be glad you noticed their last little bit of hope. There is always time for a change. I must insist each of you spread amongst them, of course watching others as well, but take special care for these two. Their wishes have not been selfish and it is time they ask for something for themselves. Let us hope they catch the falling stars we send in their paths."

The stars did as they were told with great speed and very much care. While one has only known the blue waters of the Pacific, she took this night to walk outside and look up. Smiling for all the stars in her view twinkled in delight and shimmered in her heart. Small warmth near her heart grew and grew…

…along the East Coast, a girl threw her hands up for the last time. She walked out on to her deck and leaned against the railing. She wanted something more but felt so stuck she had no idea what to do. Something pulled her head toward the sky. Living in the city she couldn't always take advantage of the stars but tonight was different. She smiled at them like they could smile back, she forgot how much she enjoyed the night sky. She felt a little better inside, something felt right about being out here and she too, could feel warmth near her heart.

The stars, thankful for the luck of the night, took the opportunity to send the last little push each of them needed. Two very special stars took it upon themselves to shoot across the night and sacrifice life in the sky to turn into their destiny… a wish.

With the most eerie mirrored affect, each star took off with all their fierce and might to burn so very bright and at that very moment both girls took a deep breath, closed their eyes and made a wish…

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Sunday, October 07, 2007

4:00am, Texas Hold 'Em, Fried Chocolate Wontons & New Friends

Friday night I spent the better part of the evening helping to set up for a Yard Sale Fundraiser for the Bakersfield LGBTQ. Wow that was a lot of stuff but kinda hard to really set up for a yard sale till the day of, so we did what we could and headed home around 9:00pm.

Enter 4:00am on my clock. Now mind you, I have seen that time on my clock many a time in the past couple of months. We typically like to go to bed around 6:00am so 4 is about a drink break or something... but to get up at this time? That's a whole other kinda can of worms. I pried myself out of bed, got into all my comfy Boston gear (afterall they had a nice win the previous night) and headed to grab donuts for the gang. I got there about 5:15ish. Zombie like I started moving stuff around and getting things into workable areas. Around 6 we had a few guys looking at things... but for the most part it was scarce. We had weird rushes throughout the day but overall we made some great money and had fun. I walked around snapping pics of the house and yard for the Halloween party. I have lots of ideas but I figured it would be easier to have reminders in front of me. Jenn and I are suppose to meet at some point to work stuff out.

I got home about 2:00pm, took a shower, got comfy in bed and decided a nap was in order. I hadn't heard from my friends, so I didn't know if Texas Hold 'Em was in the cards for the night (yes bad pun intended). About 5 I got a txt asking if I was still meeting them for dinner and to hang out. I crawled out of bed, got ready and headed out the door to Casa Munoz, mmm Mexican Food. We had a good dinner and I showed Jenn some of the pics I took of the house. We went by the store to get some drinks and snacks and off we went to Patty's house.

What an adorable little house. Imagine if you will (just do it) walking into a cottage type house with wooden floors, candles perfectly placed and lit, music playing in the background and 2 of the cutest girls cooking together in the kitchen. I was introduced to Courtney and Patty. Patty was making fried chocolate wontons and Courtney was putting powder sugar on them... all I can say is mmmmmmmmm. I enjoyed quite a few of those that night.

So I also met Kat & Alisa and Mel & Rhonda. We all settled into introductions, thank goodness there is never a test after meeting 6 new people. Everyone grabbed food, drinks and headed to the table. As some people had never played before, there was a short explanation of how it was played, blinds and betting. As I "helped" with some of the terms, I was labeled a card shark. Which is very comical since I am far from being a person who likes to gamble. I have dealt the game many a time (hence the reason I know it) I've watched it for countless hours and do enjoy the aspects of it but for me to actually play, not so much. However, on this night, it sounded like a lot of fun and I'm all about having fun.

I won the first game and then it was on... Patty had her eye on me lmao So we played for awhile and they have a fun house rule that if someone says something really funny you can tip them a Nickel. I got tipped a quarter once, sorry Denise for flicking you in the cheek but you were being mean! *giggles* Around 10ish the other 4 left and we stayed to play more, ordered pizza around 11 and spent a very good time just getting to know one another. Patty and Courtney are simply wonderful people and I'm glad I was lucky enough to meet them. I look forward to more nights hanging out.

Finally, around 1:00am we decided to call it a night. So much FUN! I headed home with one of those really good fuzzy feelings inside :)

Friday, October 05, 2007

Tumbling Back In

So life is funny. So many up and downs. Some days your the dog and some days your the hydrant. I've been trying more and more to step out of my self and look around me, at me, through me, you get the idea. The universe is a grand thing. The people you meet at those particular times, it's all laid out, you just don't know it yet. Simple choices like what to have for lunch or leaving 5 minutes later for work, it's all mapped out. Like one big game and we're the bits moving on the evergrowing board. I like the idea of it even as scary as it is sometimes.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Birthday, Baseball in Boston and Being In Love


So Thursday night (Sept. 27th) my dad dropped me off at the airport around 7:30pm. I had more than enough time to check my bags, take my shoes off, my lappy out, my dvd player, my art pencils (oh yeah, you read that right, the metal tin angers the machine, so out they come) and rings, change, watch, etc, etc, etc. At least I only have to do this once... or so I thought. So I got redressed, reset my bag and headed to good ol' Gate 3 to wait to board.


Viva Las Vegas! Enter McCarran Airport in fabulous Las Vegas, NV. I have learned the flights well over the past 2 months and I like this airport for the most part. So I headed to gate B20 because that's where my connection terminal always is. I usually have about 30 minutes to get from one side to the other. So I took my time walked over and my gate said "Columbus." Okay. That isn't Boston. So I walked to the screens and my gate had been changed... to C23 which is very, very, VERY far away and I had 13 minutes to get there. I jogged. I literally ran through the airport. I always wondered why people did that. I get it now. So I got to another security checkpoint because it was that far that I had to leave one terminal to another and I had to strip down AGAIN with about 4 minutes. I walked through and beeped. I had Alix's birthday present in my pocket and forgot to take it out, so they had me put that and my bluetooth in a small container and go through. I shoved every possible thing I could in my pockets and bag. I asked the security guy if I'd make it and he looked at me and said, "HURRY." I had to take a short train and run down another corridor but damn it, I made it. I sat there for 10 minutes and caught my breath and finally cooled down. I started to empty my pockets and realized I didn't grab her ring or my bluetooth out of the extra container! I pushed the call button and since we were still waiting on a maintence thing, I was told to go to the gate and see if they can help. The girl said I could go back. I asked, "are you sure I can go all the way back to security?" She looked at me and said, "run." So I gave my name and did just that. I ran down the corridor, took the train, ran to security, got my stuff, ran back to the train, back to the corridor and back onto the plane. The flight crew saw me coming and asked if I got her present (I had explained to them what it was I left), when I showed them the box, they all clapped and cheered. Which left me in a weird spot because when I turned to walked down the isle of the plane EVERYONE was starring at me. Hi, embarrassed much? So I sat back down, even hotter than before and did a HUGE sigh of relief. And I thought it would be safer on me than in a bag! Even funnier part, we still didn't take off for another 30 minutes after I got back, one of our pilots wasn't even there yet. We left an hour late... geez.

So I slept a little more than last time but not much. I was hoping to get at least 3 hours because I had some shopping to do when I got in town. We landed and got held up because there was another plane at our gate. Really? She's right there and I'm stuck on this plane. This landing was a little more interesting. You fly over the city out over the water to land in Logan. It's pretty neat actually, you get to see the coastline for pretty far and the views are simply breathtaking. The area is just beautiful. This time though, I knew we were getting close and we started to circle down but you couldn't see a thing. The clouds were super thick. It was like we could land on those, kinda nerve racking. So he circles lower and into the clouds we go, next thing I know, I see the run way and we're down. Wow, good job Mr. Pilot dude :)


Ginormous airport hugs are great! All dressed for work, she looked adorable as always. I even got a special pink frosted donut with sprinkles, mmm. We got my luggage and headed to work. I took the car and headed to a parking lot to plan my route. I found a fun party store, went grocery shopping and found my way home easily. Well that would be the last time it would be so simple. I got home, put the groceries away and decorated her room. I laid down for a bit and thought I should probably set an alarm in case I fall asleep. Well apparently, in that thought, I fell a sleep. Next thing I know, it's 3:50 and I'm suppose to leave at 4 to go get her. SHIT! I ran to shower off and left by 4:15pm. I headed to where I thought I was suppose to go... but I was lost. I tried to call her but no answer. (Okay this is funny because anytime I call her, she answers, even if it's to tell me she has to call me back. Now that I'm in Boston, no answer). So I just kept driving knowing that she would call when she could. Now it was like 5 till 5:00pm and I was serverly lost. She called and I had no idea where I was, the navigator in my phone chose now not to work so I was fucked and my lappy was dead... wow. I finally found a point where she could get me back toward her. Apparently, I zigged where I should have zagged. *giggles* It's funny now but I was so sad that I was so late to get her. So I had to let her go when I got to the tunnel because I had to drive under the city (that's so cool) and I thought I had it under control. Nope, got lost again. Only for about 15 minutes this time. Found my way back, called her from the parking lot and down she came with a piece of cake for me that the people in her office got her. And let me tell you, after the past 1.5 hour I just went through, that cake was well received.


So we headed home, up the stairs and into her room she went to find some signs and balloons while I stayed in the kitchen to make dinner. I love to cook, so much fun :) I left her to set up my lappy so we could watch some of the cartoons I had recorded, among some other things. By the time I finished, she had that thing wired through her Xbox 360 that played through her computer and the tv or something. I dont' know really but it was cool and all ready to go. We enjoyed dinner. We were laying in bed listening to music and I was fiddling with her fingers and it dawned on me that it was a good time to just slip the ring on. So I reached over to the night stand and fiddled with my phone (actually getting the ring) and slipped it on :) Fast forward and it was 3:30am before we knew it.


Woke up around 11ish and laid around for a bit, decided if we wanted to get out, we'd have to get moving and finally left the house around 3:00pm. Went to a great gaming store, killed some time, she showed me Harvard Square, areas she's lived, places she worked and some back stories to go with it all and I loved it. We headed back to get my camera, a bag and then headed to a parking lot so we could catch the T to FENWAY! We took this one as far as we could and then had a fairly short walk to the stadium. I had the best time listening to everyone with an accent. That city knows how to love their team and it was awesome. We walked through some of the coolest areas and neatest buildings. I was so in awe I literally forgot to take pictures. Alix learned quite quickly that I wander. If something catches my eye, I go right to it. She turned a few times and I was gone... oops. *Sorry baby but thanks for being so patient and finding me with a smile every time* She also found that holding my hand made it easier to keep track of me *giggles*


So before we actually entered Fenway, she took me to a super cool team store and bought me a sweatshirt and t-shirt! YAY! They are super comfy awesome! THEN... oh yes, we entered, in my opinion, the most historic ball park EVER! The brick, the green monster, the history, the love for the game... wow wow WOW. That ballpark has a feeling like nothing from the West coast. The energy in that place is AMAZING to say the least. We shared a hot dog and some chicken and fries, so great. The stadium is small but very cool. We had pretty good seats and I had the best time just taking it all in. The one thing that had me constantly commenting on it? Alright, if you've been to games you know they have the people who walk up and down the isles selling, sodas, ice cream, pizza or whatever. Okay, Boston wins. They sold "Hot Soup." Oh yeah, they sell New England Clam Chowder and crackers. Made perfect sense after I thought about it but it cracked me up for awhile. I have a pic, it's not great but you'll get the idea. Every time I tried to take one, someone would stand up or she would turn. So you're stuck with the one with my thumb in the corner.


Great game! They came back to win 6 to 4 that night! Big Pappi came up and tanked one at the Green Monster to insure it in the 6th (I think). It was great. You know what else is super fun? Singing Sweet Caroline. They turn the music down at certain parts and it's "all crowd" singing. It's giving me the chills just typing about it. So great, great GREAT! I took some pics around the park and that will be a great memory for a long time. I can't thank you enough baby for sharing your birthday, city and Fenway with me. We walked around for a bit afterwards, tried to play pool downtown but it was way too packed so she decided to take me to her arcade.


I've heard about this place from her and Spin many-a-time so I was really excited to see it. Okay, this place is HUGE. It has so many giant screen tv's all along the wall, games, batting cages, pool tables, bar... and the best jalapeno salsa chicken sandwich. I have a new love for Alcohol induced Tea :) We played a few games of pool and headed home. Happy Birthday Baby Girl!


Slept in, of course. Went out for a FANTASTIC breakfast/lunch. Mmm, I like waffles. Went to the mall, went crazy at Old Navy and I got a new Boston lid :) There was a pretty park on one side of the mall. So beautiful and it had cooled down quite a bit. It was too late for me to make dinner so we decided on pizza and wings. We set the lappy up in the kitchen and watched Pokemon. Loved it! Back in the room we watched one of my fav comedians which she loved. To the point that she went and bought his DVD when she saw it :) *SPARKLE-LY* I made a giant cookie, cut a big piece into a bowl and put vanilla ice cream on it. Ate that in bed while watching tv. We laid around for our last night together for this trip, I packed up and we headed to bed.


Ooops, oops and oops. We forgot to factor some things in and I missed my flight. So I got re-routed and ended up with a layover in Phoenix. I was suppose to be home at noon and got home at 7:30pm but at least I got home.

This trip was a lot harder. As I'm sure each one will be till she can finally be here for good. I'm going with the notion that anything worth having is worth waiting for. I will stay positive and it's nice that she won't let me be sad for long, always there to comfort and pick me up. Each time everything flows a little smoother and becomes more natural.


It was hard to say bye to that cool New England air and that girl that has a piece of my heart but it always gives me something to look forward to because each time we do come back together, I know what it means to really feel love. Not the store bought fly by night kind but the grips at your soul and makes you smile from the inside kind. The one that you thought was only in books... oh yeah, that kind *smiles* Deeper and deeper, this girl gets me... so much that when I struggle with words, she can say it for me. When those eyes look at me... they look into me but they don't scare me, they don't make me fear what she sees because I know she loves me for exactly who I am and have longed to be. Thank you Alix.


Aww, we're so cute! Birthday at Fenway, YAY!

Outside the mall.

Black & White of the outfield

Painted near one of the entrances above the hot dogs

There's the Clam Chowder Girl!

Ahh... there it is, Fenway Park *blinks*

Monday, October 01, 2007

This is what one does with a little unexpected 5 hour lay over in Phoenix... I wish it was longer ;)