Holding Back, Sitting, Wondering, Waiting... but for how long?
I had an interesting conversation today with a friend about being in an "abyss" of a relationship. It got me to thinking (big shocker, right?) about her situation, my situation, some other people's situations.
How long can one hold back how they truly feel, hoping the other person may come around? And haven't we learned that if someone isn't "in it" they probably won't ever be? What an absolutely horrible sentence to have typed. I think some more of my romantic side just died. Did I, ME, just really type that? And more importantly, leave it? I know how to test if I really believe this... music. Songs will either confirm that I'm losing faith or they will confirm that I still believe in "happily ever afters." The drive home should be interesting.
Hmm. That's all I really have, is hmm.
Updating: Later - 3:55pm
We've been swapping emails all day about the situations at hand. She showed me her "halfassed" attempt at romance and I started crying wishing for something like that... what in the what is that? I can't get outta my head that if that's her "halfassed" attempt... well SHEESH! Just in a moment I guess, she gave me some good reminders as well. Interesting day to say the least. *laughs while shaking head*
*sits back and looks around*
Dear Universe, if you could take a nanosecond to show me some more of the romantic side of people, I could REALLY use that today. Thank you.
Signed, hopeful-ish
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