Sunday, July 08, 2007

Playing the Part of a Chicken

So I spent a portion of my day at Barnes & Noble working on notes and such. It is far less destracting than my own home even with all of the books surrounding me. I found a cozy seat by the cafe which lofted out some very yummy smells but I resisted and kept right on working along. Unfortunately, about 20 minutes before I needed to leave to meet for dinner, my lappy battery died. Well F*%@. I didn't want to arrive at BJ's too early because they are one of the only places that carries cider on tap and I was only going to have one since they are a tad on the strong side. So I decided to see if B&N had any art books I couldn't live without. I couldn't find one in particular I was looking for and the guy looked at me like I was a ghost when I explained to him what I was looking for. People skills, come on dude, grab some, I know you have books on that shit.

Anyway, I did run across one on the How to character faerys and other mythical creatures. OMGosh! I've been wanting to do this but I don't necessarily know the "rules" or if there are any to what they can and can't have. So I found this book to be very handy. So I was all gung-ho for about 3 minutes. I headed toward the front to pay for it and it happened. I looked down at it and started thinking... what if I can't do it? What if they don't come out right or I can't get the structures of their details right on. I can't certainly display anything that looks like shit...

I set the book down and walked out. Fear of Failure. So far my mind is winning over my desire.

So I had an extra cider to make me a little more giddy and forget about my internal struggle that happened 60 minutes prior.

Fear - 1
Me - - I can't even justify a zero, my 3 minute attempt was just sad.

*sigh*

Friday, July 06, 2007

Ghost Hunters

Okay so I called my friend to see if she wanted to meet me down at the batting cages. Her response was simply this, "Oh I want to but we're going ghost hunting downtown. Wanna come?" Now to some of you this may sound a bit odd but I thought it sounded like a lot of fun. Now see they weren't meeting till 10:00pm at the #1 haunted building in Bakersfield: The Haberfield Building. So I told her I'd call her if we could make it. I bounced the idea around in my head because there was that voice. You know the one. "You need to get to bed early, you have a lot of work to do tomorrow." As I was about to give in, I snapped up my head and became really angry. I have no children. I can drink a little caffine and sleep in on the weekend. If I want to go ghost hunting, I should just go ghost hunting. I walked in that batting cage and killed that ball. I am tired of always doing "the right" thing. I want to have fun and sleep should not be why I don't do something. I can always catch up on sleep.

So after 30 minutes of killing the ball and myself, we hurried home to change and head downtown. We got there and settled in. Jenn gave us some background on the store and things that have occured over time. Apparently, this ghostie or ghosties do not like the beanie babies in the store. It or they also like to rearrange things around the store as well. She took us around and showed us different parts and rooms around the store.

So we got our instructions and just sat around, attempting to be quiet but put 8 of us together, 2 being big chickens and it makes it kinda hard to be quiet. Lots of giggling and such. We decided to roam around a bit with the night vision cam (very fucking cool btw). Denise handed it to me and I started to walk toward some of the back rooms and it shut off. Weird cause I my hand felt like it got bumped and then the camera turned off. Okay whatever. Then she had trouble getting it back on and decided to talk to the ghost: "Okay little ghostie, since you're so technologically advanced, why don't you turn the fucking thing back on." I don't know that I've laughed that hard in a long time. Leave it to Denise.

So we were all gathered toward the middle of the shop discussing some stuff and all of the sudden the credit machine starts printing out a receipt, over and over and over. We ran over there to see who did it but we realized we were all together. It wasn't on a whole hour it was 10:57, so it's not like it would be set to print end of the day receipts and it only printed one thing but 3 times. Okaayyy.

To which we walked into the other room to grab the paper and noticed a piggy beanie on the ground. Okay who threw the pig on the ground. Again, we were all together, no one went off alone. At the beginning we took pics of all the areas where things have moved or had something seen. Aaron pulled up some pics he took and one of them showed the pig on the stand with the other beanies. Weird. So Denise decided to sit in that corner because she thought the ghostie was hanging out there. She decided to just ask the ghost if it was there and she noticed a starfish beanie moving. So she asked again and it moved again. Then she began asking yes or no questions and each time this little starfish beanie would wiggle. Clearly move and not just in front of her. Creeeepppyy.

So we heard some chairs (or what sounded like chairs) being dragged across the floor above our heads. So 3 of them ran upstairs to see if they could find anything. Just some abandoned rooms, no chairs, no nothing. Alrighty.

Ghosties? Maybe, but we plan on staying the night some time in the near future to see what happens in the witching hours, it should be fun.

What do you believe in....
Plain Plate

Almost there...

Finished Painting... See you in a week!

Ta-DA!!!




Close Up

If you've never gone to paint your own pottery, you should. It's so much fun to make it your own. I absolutely love it!

Gallery Find

So in my latest adventures in life I have been lucky enough to have met 2 very awesome girls. They own their own Art Galley on 18th Street. Although they may not have it for much longer, I'm glad to have got to see it and will enjoy it for the next few months.


They had a Queen Mab Exhibit/Opening last weekend. I worked a good portion of the day but left to make the end of the show. This particular table had a fun little creature on it. Among a lot of other things. I was drawn to him right away. We wandered around and took it all in. So many things I want to try and explore, I can hardly wait. We have some talented people in this town and it was so cool to see all their ideas come to life.


We chatted with a few different people, continued looking around and enjoying all the creative energy around us. All the while keeping my eye on that little guy. Finally, I walked over to his card and he wasn't badly priced at all. I walked out to my car and grabbed some money to buy him. I named him Widget and he has found a nice place on my shelf near my faery pics and my cheshire cat. He is chatty and gets along great in my "space."


Thursday, July 05, 2007

Where to start...

So I really left for awhile. I don't think I've ever only had 2 blogs in a month. A lot has happened in the past weeks. So much in fact, I wouldn't even know where to start on an update. It's so blurry and so menacing in some ways. My blogs for awhile will be dark, will be vague and will be a lot of jumbled thoughts. I've reached a critical part of my life where doing the right thing doesn't necessarily mean it was the right thing for me. Unfortuantely, people tend to get hurt when such changes occur and that is by far, the hardest part. Mistakes have been made. That is life and it is how we learn. Unforgiveable, hard to say right now. Really causes one to disect herself.

I am working on me. I am finding out what makes me "tick." I mean I enjoy many aspects of my life but I live in fear. "Well who doesn't?" You may ask. Good point but my fear is fixable. This particular fear is failure. From a person who is controlling, the idea of not being able to control a situation or outcome in this case, does not sit well. So somewhere in past years I decided, well subconsciously, to not try at all. Can't fail if you don't put yourself out there.

So in stepping outside of myself and looking at all the things I do I really wonder why I keep certain things in my life that really just give me a lot of grief and don't make me happy. I am working on ways of thinning and it is coming along but as with anything, it takes time. I am more importantly, adding things I've always wanted to do but was afraid to. We'll see where that gets me.

Vague? Yes I know but this is more about reflection pieces for myself. So do with it, as you please.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Pics and ramblings of sorts.

I've decided that I really am too busy but where do I cut out parts of who I am? How does one trim their life? I love every thing that I participate in but do I participate too much? I would like to say no. I would like to say that I can add more because over time I have actually let some things in my life that are what my body and soul are made of... just let them go. I'm taking an even bigger interest in Astrological Signs. I've always been fascinated but I've never taken to the time to learn how to embrace the other signs around me. Why do I get along better with some rather than others? Being the fish that has trouble being tied down, I am very free flowing and artsy, if you will. The Pisces sign is 2 fish swimming away from one another to explore and be free, bound by a single line, that one line is what keeps them grounded but not by much. Pretty much nailed that one on the head. I always get distracted by "shiny objects" and want to learn and see more. I'm constantly wanting to change and evolve, it's funny really. So that's the basics of what I've touched on. I'm getting ready to go deeper, reading charts and really learning how to cater to myself as a Fish :)

Friday, June 01, 2007



This is what one finds really funny at 1:30am in Las Vegas with friends.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

We'll Always Have Paris

So I fell off the Blogging bandwagon but for good reason, I've been on one of the most awesome road trips ever. I'll start where any story should start, at the beginning. This event has been in the making for awhile. We've had this weekend blocked for some time and we're so very happy it worked out. Two of our friends had a Commitment Ceremony in Zion National Park in Utah. Other key characters in said story are: Alix & Adonis, aka Lex and Spin.

So last Monday, 5/21/07 began a rigorous work week (it may have only been 3 days but it consisted of getting A LOT of work done, along with meetings in the evenings, packing and prepping for our 3 state trip, well 4 if you count our own). Monday went off without a hitch, got work done, got through a meeting early, cleaned out my car and did some laundry. Tuesday I really started to feel the pressure. I had to make sure I had all of my camera equipment, film and other vital parts. Work seemed to be getting busier rather than lighter. I had to do my best to get as much done as possible seeing as how when I got back, I would only have 3 days to close the month and most of you know how bad my "end of the month" is already. Wednesday found me pounding caffeine, after energy drink, after caffeine to get through my day, I got a lot accomplished but I wished it had been more. At 4:01pm I found myself flying down the highway to Burbank Airport to pick up Lex and Spin. I arrived right around 5:30ish. I was wandering around in the wrong area for a few minutes. After calling Lex and figuring out there was more than one sign that said "Terminal A Baggage Claim" we found one another. I gave my old friend a big hug and shook hands with Spin. We headed back toward Bakersfield with a short stop in Valencia at BJ's for some pizza.

Arriving at the house, we sat around and talked for a bit. Erin had to get to bed since she had to work the next day and I had a lot of errands to run. Thursday morning consisted of running all over town, packing and picking up Erin in Arvin at 12:30pm. We stopped at Jack in Box in Tehachapi which they do not have back East, so Lex & Spin enjoyed it very much. Spin decided to fashion "Honey Mustard Coutour" on his shirt. This became a running joke all weekend as we quickly found, Spin is somewhat notorious about getting stains on his shirts. Fast forward to State line where we stopped at the Outlet to spend an hour in Old Navy before finishing the last leg of our trip for the day. Checked into the Stratosphere then headed to the Palms to watch Pirates of the Caribbean 3. The theater had reclining seats and lots of yummy popcorn. We wandered around the hotel after the movie then headed to bed because the next day was the next leg of our trip to Utah.

After some breakfast, a trip to Best Buy to get Erin a DS and some last minute directions from Shay, we were back on the road. We traveled N on the 15 toward a corner of Arizona, then into Utah. Which may I add, loved the 75mph speed limit! Stopped to get snacks, gas and Krispy Kreme donuts along the way. I really am glad I carry 900 songs on the iPod, I was in heaven listening to so much music this trip. We got to the Majestic View Lodge, checked in, saw our friends, got ready and became confused. None of us knew we were now on Mountain time, lesson learned. So we lost an hour, went downstairs pool side to meet some family and friends. Had a really good time and enjoyed the specialty: Thai Peanut Chicken Pizza! It was super great. Since bottles weren't allowed in the pool area people had to make trips to the back of the car to drink or bring back little plastic cups full. Everyone turned in fairly early. I tried to be sleepy but night time is my time, so I stayed awake watching TV.

Next thing I know Erin is getting us up to get ready to hike. After some miscommunication, Lex, Spin and I caught the shuttle to the park and met Erin on the Shuttle that actually went into the park. Erin happened to pick the trail that was the very last stop and where we would be later in the day for the ceremony; The Temple of Sinawava/Narrows. The trail was really easy and a lot quicker than we thought. Sidebar: I bought a Pokemon game for the DS and had been playing the night before, one of the first things you learn in the game is to "Stay out of the tall grass or wild Pokemon will attack." So here we go into the trail and not 5 minutes in and I'm kind of lagging behind because I'm too busy looking around and off to my left is some tall grass and I start giggling to myself because I'm thinking, "I wonder if there are wild Pokemon in there." So I'm laughing harder and doing my best to be quiet but Spin turns around and catches me with a big ol' cheesy grin on my face and asks me what is so funny. So when I point over to the tall grass and say, "I saw the tall grass." He knew exactly what I was talking about and immediately started laughing. We all had a good chuckle. It's pretty bad when you relate games to real life but whatever, we're super cool... Back to the end of the hike (cont.) The tricky part was in order to get to the really super cool caves you had to head upstream. You literally had to walk in the river on rocks. We didn't have the right shoes so we decided to try it barefoot. It worked for about 3 crossings, then we came to a fairly big clearing that showed a lot more rocks and water and a turn we couldn't see around to know if that was really the end of it. Time being against us we decided to stop here. We took some pictures, acted a little silly (well that was pretty much the whole time) and headed back. We were all starving and opted to eat at the little cafe and let me say they make a hell of a bacon cheeseburger. We rushed back to the room, 4 of us got ready in 40 minutes and headed back to which we had just come. Luckily, we were only 5 minutes late. However, we weren't last.

Shay's mom and some of her aunt's were MIA. No one knew where they were, the last anyone knew they had stopped about 1/2 way up the hill for lunch and then they were suppose to be on their way. Kate even went so far as to have a driver dispatch to all the shuttles looking for "4 elderly women" not my words :) Different people walked part of the trail, thinking they might have tried it but no one really thought they would try to go all the way. Now when I say that, not only did they finish the entire trail but they walked in the water and rocks just as we had! Good job women! Thankfully, an hour later, red faced and a little winded they came walking up. No one was hurt, just a little thirsty.

We walked down a little ways and found a nice log for everyone to sit on. I had my cameras out in full force, trying to capture everything I could. Sidebar: I'd like to thank my shelf assistant, Erin and my lens/camera assistant Spin to whom made taking pictures that much easier. Thanks guys :) It was a very impromptu ceremony and I think that contributed to it being so special. I can honestly say I've known these two from the start and it was super awesome to witness something so simple and special... congrats again, girls.

We were all pretty hungry at this point and piled on some shuttles and headed back to the lodge to grab some dinner. It was all super yummy! Everyone was pretty tired and headed back to their rooms. I laid on the bed listening to my iPod, the other 3 laid around playing their DS's. It was nice to just relax. About 9ish my phone rang, Kate wanted to know if we wanted to tag along for some karaoke. 3 of the 4 agreed, what the hell, why not? Spin had been a sleep for an hour and pretty much didn't wake up till the next morning. So we went to the only bar in town to find out there was a "membership only" rule in Utah in order to function as a bar. WTF?!?! However, they can sell us a "temporary" membership. Okay dude, see we are from the West Coast, not some remote city with a population of 104, it's called a Cover Charge. Sheesh. Anyway, it cost us a $1.00 a person. Um, okay mister Utah man, we'll find some way to wrangle up $8.00. *rolls eyes* So we got some drinks, played some pool, listened to a fairly decent band and enjoyed our time out. We were back in the lodge by 10:30pm. I was wide awake and bored. I decided to clean the room up, pre-pack for tomorrows trip back to Vegas, then get online and find something to read. Finally, at 1:40am when I finished my latest Alex Tryst story I went to bed.

8:30am and I was awakened by that damn Sun. Don't get me wrong, I know we need it to grow food and all that crap but it's so damn bright! Worse, I was hungry. If I get too hungry, I get cranky. No one wants that. Erin got up and we left the kids to grab some breakfast. It was super yummy and I was ready to be back on the road. We loaded up and were on our way. Stopped for some fresh water and more donuts and rolled into Vegas about 12:30pm. Since check in wasn't for awhile, I had some film to drop off and we went to the outlet mall for a bit. Bought some random things and I bought my second camera bag for the weekend. Turns out the one I thought would be perfect was too small but my old standby, Ritz Camera, had exactly what I needed. They even had dropped the price of the Nikon D200, ooh la la. Soon. I'm waiting for their 2 new releases and then it will go down to the price of the D80. Woohoo! Anyway, we headed back to pick up the pictures and they came out pretty good. I had a couple of favorites.

We checked in to the Paris, lugged all our crap upstairs to a labyrinth of rooms and I grabbed my "lazy" clothes and took a shower. I pulled out the picture Cd's from Costco and started loading them onto the computer to add borders and such. Spin had found "Charm School" on VH1, it was a marathon. I had never heard of this show. Most of you know my availability to watch TV is of Not. So I was introduced to Mo'nique and her "students." Holy shit. I watched/listened to the show and I can't believe how tacky these girls are. What "charms" are they learning? That is truly my only question because really all I saw was a lot of cat fights. Although, it really was funny and channels have to get ratings somehow. Spin was so awesome with mimicking these chicks, it was damn hilarious. Let me just say, everything is better with Spin'isms. My back seat and road trips will never be the same having ridden with Spin & Lex. Their banter is simply hilarious, always having to one up the other, you're constantly laughing.

So we were in Sin City and for 3 hours we laid around, watched Charm School/played with DS's. Wow, what wild animals we were. Finally, around 7:ish I finished up with my stuff, called Shay and met her and Kate to show them the pictures. I came back up to the room and we decided to walk down the strip. With no real plans we decided to take the kids to their mecca: Gameworks. First, we stopped off this to eat in the little Mexican Restaurant. I decided drinking fast was the way to go. Good choice, I was happy and ready to play. We spent a good couple hours at Gameworks then headed back to the hotel at Midnight since they closed. Erin went up to room shortly after gambling a little. The 3 of us wandered around a bit, decided we wanted something, walked outside and headed toward a 7-11 to get some Slurpee's and snacks. Finally making our way back upstairs, I'll never forget sitting there watching Spin & Lex argue which hallway our room actually was in. We spent our last night together in Paris and it was wonderful.


Erin was up early, the rest of us slept till about 9:30am. We packed up our stuff for the last time and headed downstairs. This time, Erin and I went to the car alone. Spin and Lex dropped their luggage off in Kate & Shay's room and we headed off to breakfast. That was an event within itself. The 6 of us together for the last time. Lots of laughter, lots of teasing about math, Erin choking because Shay was trying to kill her by saying she didn't use math everyday, everyone giving me shit because mimosas are my new water and someone *coughs Lex* not liking ham. There was so much more and I wish I could remember everything but this is long enough.

We trickled back to the top and gathered in a small circle. 5 days prior I held out my hand to shake Spins. Now, in his embrace, I didn't want to ever let go. Two years was way too long since I last saw my sweet little Lex. Thankfully, Kate and Shay moved to Northern California about 2 months ago and we'll be seeing them more. We're planning a trip to Yosemite in October, that should be awesome!

I'm glad everyone is home safe. I miss "the crew" so much. I can't wait till it's time to see everyone again. I will upload some pictures soon. I have to go have more discs made, they messed up my order, amateurs.


Thanks for the great memories everyone. You've reminded me of truly special things in life and an even more special place for them to happen in.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007



I'm uploading some music from some CD's my friends let me borrow. This little gem of a hair-do (or hair don't) just HAD to be shared. Flashback honey? You have no idea.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Hello

I really don't have anything other than that. My mind is pretty much scrambled. I once again, am in way over my head. *wiggles fingers* SHOCKER

I've had to result to pure caffine. I think my heart is fluttering instead of beating. Creepy. So hope y'alls Friday is flying like mine. I'll catch ya later gaters. Later gaters? *shakes head* Geez.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Sleepy and Dopey.

You may be thinking of 2 of the 7 dwarves. Actually, I'm describing myself. I pretty much have the same problem daily. I'm sleepy. So logically you might think: "wow, she should go to bed earlier." You would be correct. However, being the dope that I am, I tend to stay up just as late, if not later, trying to get so very many things accomplished.

Usually by Thursday night, I'm going to bed by 10:00pm, which I know some of you wince at but that really is early for me. Then Friday comes. Oh the Friday. I end up staying up till 1 or 2 in the morning, sleep till 9:00am, assuming I don't have to be somewhere early, find some time to take a nap in the afternoon and stay up just as late Saturday night. So by Sunday night, I'm completely set up to fail at going to bed early because I'm wide awake at 10:00pm.

Someday I'll figure it out, for now, I'm having fun with all the things in my life :)

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

R.I.P. Office Chair




My work chair has died. It may just look like a broken arm but it's oh so much more. This is the 3rd set of bolts to fall out. I'm not sure where the other 2 came from but nothing fell off when those came out. Kinda scary really. I went to sit down and I put my hand on it and it just flew to the ground. I've been here 5.5 years and so has that chair, so I guess it really was time for a new one. It's ripped, full of dirt, has some spots of oil and well it's falling apart, literally.

Services will be today at 11:00am by the dumpster.
"It served my butt well for years but it's time for it to roll on to the great office in the sky."

It will be sorely missed.


Sidebar: Kiss Totten was enjoying his last tumble on my chair.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Closing a chapter in life.

Well softball is all done. It's very strange. I know I will continue to coach but it still feels like a chapter of my life is finished as next year when I step onto the field, Erin won't be there to lead the girls. That is very strange to me. I've enjoyed standing by her side for the past 5 years. Wow, I can't believe it's already been 5 years. We've had some graduate, we've had some give up and quit, we've kicked some off but we've learned something from everyone of those girls. I just hope they got something from us. I'm sure I'll be excited when next year rolls around but in my heart, I know it won't be the same...

Friday, May 04, 2007

iLife May 07

So my life is mad crazy. Day after day, hour after hour I have a lot to do. May is the new September. I figure it's only a matter of time before we are saying every month is like this. I certainly hope not but I can't say "never."

May is wrapping up softball. So the 1st 2 weeks is devoted to that. The 4th through the 6th we are at the beach for a wedding. Here is a list, this is where it gets fun:
8th - game till 5:30pm then meeting at 6:30pm - 8:30ish
10 - last game! :)
11 - Dodger game in L.A.
13 - Hippy Smoothers Day (taken from a cute radio ad)
14 - back to the gym; SSL softball meeting at 6:00pm
15 - Turtle meeting
16 - Spring Sports Banquet 6:00pm
17 - Office Season Finale Party at our house :)
18 - Dinner at friends house
19 - Tastefully Simple Open House Party at our house
21 - Meeting 6:30pm
22 - Executive board local Tortoise Meeting
23 - Going to Burbank from work to pick up Alix from airport
24 - Leave for Las Vegas/Zion - 28th
30 - Bunco
June 1 - Graduation
2 - Fresno Outing

So after all of that, we'll somewhat slow down, maybe, till people find out we're free :) So enjoy sitting at home watching your shows. We don't have any, we had to give them up...

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Kiss Totten

This is my latest rescue. He walked in through my front door. Not literally, a woman from across the street brought him in a box. She said one of the guys saw him right before he got his body chopped in half in their machine shop. Yikes.

So I took him because she had no idea what to do and the poor little guy was lost and starving. Now 3 weeks later, he is super playful, he's a biter, he and Howie wrestle and he is a big ol' cry baby. My boss has offered to take him. His wife came in, saw him and wanted him right away. Since he was being bottle fed, they decided to wait. :)

I love him but I need to learn to let them go otherwise I have to give up rescueing and I most certaining do not want to do that.

So say hello to Kiss Totten. It should have been "don't toss the kitten." But when Erin-ese comes out, you really just never know. So we just call him KT sometimes. He's really cute and funny.